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2008-10-23T23:34:00.003+08:00

random pictures of the hongkong trip last month.

we saw people swimming from the Peak. xD

Eu Yan Sang HUGE manufacturing plant.

DIM SUM for BREAKFAST (:

THE BESTEST BEST BEEF NOODLES!!

2 most stressed people.

some statue in a pillar.

duck?goose? ROASTEDyummy.

MONGKOK.

2008-09-25T00:57:00.002+08:00

IT'S GOOD TO BE BACK (:
though i cant say how much i wished i didnt have to so soon.
but all's good.

The company is probably the most that matters.
those good times we shared, laughter,cheapthrills,diningtable,
road trips,ferry trips,shopping and those jokes.
ohgosh. what fun.

my memory harddisk had better capture them all real well.
i'd do really want to remember this kinda
once in a lifetime experience with these bunch of people.
with the group of classmates that
you once thought were never able gonna be hanging out with
or have formed a certain kind of prejudiced impression of what they were like.
gosh.
it all becomes kinda different, in fact very, when you're stuck with
these people in a "cantbehelped" situation And things turned out
amazingly totally way better than you've planned it out to be.
whoww.
what an awesome surprise.

wished had taken more pictures with the people though.
realised my photos were mainly scenaries and things.
yikes. a pity. but i'm not really into asking people to take pictures.
unless its something special or if they ask. haha.
cant imagine.
talking to classmates that i rarely even spoke with.
and realised there's so much fun.
of course not as in i'd be able to pick out a bestfriend.
but as a clique.
though i would have totally enjoyed myself better if
my clique peeps were there.
aww.they were missed.

anyhow. ahahah. okay.
so much to say.
i've got no idea where to start once again.
i'd just leave it as it is for now.
and head back into my rm to submerge myself
into those laughters and jokes in my memory.
cant bear to let it go yet.
it ended all too soon.
i need awhile to absorb and reflect.
appreciate the people that made this an even
more unexpected and worthwhile trip.
-to make it unforgettable- ya right.
i probably would in a few yrs to come.
hoping not to.
okay.
i've missed the smell of my room!
the fresh air that comes through my window.
hawhaw(x

2008-07-30T00:54:00.002+08:00

slipshot.lastmin as usual.
it was handdrawn like hours before presentation.
fantastic.
madness all in a day or 2.
2 days with less than 4hrs of sleep.
tell me about it.
the eyebags will say it all even before i speak.

2008-07-20T15:46:00.002+08:00

i found the calculator that i lost on May 11, TODAY.
in time for my sem exams. ha.

and i'm here.
because i'm not taking my nap.

omg. i want to go back to coffee club to study and eateat!
shitfattening food there but its too good to resist.

i need to shit.
constipation again man.

pharmaco test**VERYIMPT.
3projs due next wk.
ONE eyebag on right eye.
commitments.
unfocusedmind and an embarrassed self.

it has been 2interestingwks.

2008-05-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

omg. ahahaa.
so.
i've finally pushed it way too much.

well. so much for all the studying.
low blood pressure, low sugar level was acting up
that left me confused and screwed during the test.
but i got ta come home early!
so i slept.........................
for 5 straight hours.
and i'm like rushing reports.
wondering if i'll have time ta study for test on thurs.
hmm. thankfully the test was only 10%
and yes i've learnt a lesson.
that i've to study earlier.
no more late nights. seriously.
omg. what a horrid experience.
damn.

the feeling was horrid.
my arms felt like dead weights.
i felt choked that made me get the wana throw up.
roarrrr.

hokay. there goes.
that was the day of the wk.
roarr.

hokay. back to my report before i'm unable to finish it.

2008-05-21T23:20:00.002+08:00

missing 2days of school really kills.
not that i want and am totally looking forward to going,
but i need those lectures.
omg. there's 3 tests next week.

i should be studying even harder this wk for them already.
damn.
german test today was horrid.
screwed up one section and there goes the entire paper.
bloodyhell.
the cause of missing an important hour of german.
no,but ofcourse that extra hour would have helped.
ROARR.
thankfully the listening saved it by alittle.

i lost part of it the first time i heard the cd.
sometimes hearing a foreign language is hard not because
you dont know the words or dont recognise it.

but more of not being familiarise with the language that
causes all the words you hear to sound like nothing more than "buzzing"
my brain seem to need to work harder to identify the sounds and
match them with their meanings in my head.
its a funny feeling.

its harder to listen than to speak and write. ahaha.
i've concluded.
its so easy to lose concentration and after that missing the words.
but all was fine.

had some german club party after that.
we ate, and ate somemore. and there were still lotsa food to take home.
there were sausages, sauerkraut, potato salad and applestrudel made
by the club and one of the teacher's friend.

omg. and i embarrassed myself again.
my teacher made the potatosalad halway and left it on the table
with too much sauce added into it.
my friend and i didnt know and we were like saying who added
so much sauce and left it standing halfdone.
my teacher was like uta you make it you have to eat it up.
omg. SHE WAS THE ONE WHO STARTED MAKING IT AND DIDNT
FINISH. and yes.she's the one that added too much sauce.
TSKTSK. it was hilariously embarrassing! omg.
next time yea i'd better keep my mouth shut or soften my comments.
Damn.
but in the end, used my social skills and went around getting around to
have a taste of the potatosalad that me and petra made.
hawhaw. it was NICE OKAY. serious!
i'd make it again and eat myself even.
hokay that's if you like sour and preserved stuff.
a german exchange student said it was better if i added more salt,
omg. made it alil too salty but nevertheless, YUMMY OKAY!
ahahaa.

ohwell. that sums up the day. it was a good party.
didnt think it'd be so fun. maybe the company la hurh.
Syl and i were stil comparing teachers.
used to have the same teacher
but diff this sem.
i've got the old man while she's got a pretty and hot german teacher.
apparently i think i'd stick with the old man cus' according to
the way she and a few others described her,
i think the old man is more relaxed and comfortable with us now.
compared to previously.
hahaha.
so alles gut.

Heute ist ein lang Tage,ich bin sehr müde
und später habe ich viel hausaufgaben machen und
denken ich kann nicht fruh schlafen.
aber morgen soll ich fruh austehen, dann habe ich zeit in dem park
laufen. danach um half zehn will ich in die Schule gehen.
Die party habe ich viel Spaß gehabt.
Hoffenlich der klub kann mehr aktivity machen.

ich muss jetzt hausaufgaben gemacht und will kaffee trinken.
okay, Gute Nacht.

2008-05-17T23:51:00.002+08:00

i'm HHOTTTT
hokay. HAVE BEEN.
its was sucha SCARY experience though :\
yikes.
couldnt believe it.
my temp. was rocket high.
to the extent that i could feel heat from my neck,
i could barely move, my brain activity was near 0.
whatelse.
oh the fact that all i could do for 2 days was lie on the sofa
until i had a backache.
omg. it was so so sooooo,gosh.
terrible experience.
and i used up like 2boxes of tissues per day.
everytime i coughed its as if i'm gonna cough my whole
throat out.
bleahhhh.
i went to the docs' like a freaking zombie.
barely able to talk.
mostly just stare and nod my head.
ohman.
at least when i reached my temp was only 39.8
so he wont throw me into ice.
it was sooooo scary.
started with the flu on wed.
by thurs the fever was raging from early morning.
saw doc at night cus' panadol didnt work.
paracetamol sucks x(
releases the heat from your body by making you perspire
and uncomfortable.
ohman.
and i started doing funny things like lying on the floor cus' it was colder.
goshh.
ohman. and today my throat was terrible.
it was uncomfortable.
and i felt as though phlegm was blocking my whole respiratory tract.
omg. it was so darn hard to breathe! xS
ROARRRR.
and yea. the headache and giddyness came back again today in the afternoon.
so popped another panadol.
ohman. i wana cough out the phlegm also cant.
so uncomfortable!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH.

can cough until chest pain and something's stil blocking.
ohman. how much worst can it get!! ROARR.
ohno. okay.better go sleep soon.
i'm not feeling too good again.
crapp.
i'm not gonna waste my long wkend away.
sheesh.
my voice sounds disgusting.
half nasal half GOAT-ish.

verything tastes horridly bland now.
can't eat properly. no appetite.
bleahhhh.

once this is all over.
i'm gonna start exercising and stay healthy
and eat my multi-vitamins DAILY.

oh funny. just the other day
fut was just mentioning something and started talking about
vitamins.. and she was saying like
"i take it with the vulti-mitamin or ....."
muahahhaa. VULTI-MITAMIN!?!!!?!
ohman.
nvm. then i went home and i was talkng to my mom and asking
about her vitamins then i asked
"which is your vultimitamin aah"
omg. wth. it gets in your head man.

like the last time my SOTOPUS.
ahaha.
jing said my "tummach" feels bloated.
MUAHAHHA. tummy/stomach!!! WTH.
hokay. it happens. to everyone.
ahahaha.

alrightt. better go sleep.
sheesh. i hope not much of my brain cells are fried
the past few days. myeaahmyeah. bullcrap.
kay. not tired but gonna sleep.
for the brain's sake.

2008-05-14T02:33:00.002+08:00

JOKE FOR THE DAY :

Vulti-Mitamin.
OMG. ahahaha.
too much... too much DRUG NAMES and drug stuffs.

my tongue was tripping today with so many words.
said antibiotic when i wanted ta say something else i cant remember.
WTH.
muahahaha.

anyway,
hokay.
that concludes another funny day.
today's lecture was funny.
the teacher's got charisma man.
ahaha.she makes the whole thing kinda light hearted so dont really
feel as though we've got so much to absorb or that its dry.
not too bad i suppose.
at least she didnt read off the slides this time.
yawwwn.

sheesh 've gotta be up tmr at 730!
tutorial first!!
omg.
late again. damnit. cannot.
i'll miss impt grabs!!

ROARRR.

SNOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2008-05-12T23:32:00.002+08:00

PLAYED my FIRST 3sets/Match game TODAYY after 3Years.
whalaa. but aiyaa.
okay i managed ta get a chance to play with spore's top 10.
she's only 12YEARSOLD. but she plays fantastically.

for her age she's good.
i think i scared her.
she was kinda doing alrightt in the first match.
i was finding her weak points while she was attacking profusely.
glad my trained blocking paid off.
ahahaa. she smashes like.... any of us!?!
except that the balls higher when i'm so used to a lower height.
so had ta adjust alittle.
i think she became worried when i started attacking too.
but she fearless when she attacks man.
ahahaa. so yea. it was fun playing with her.
but yea duh. i won the 2nd and 3rd sets.
told myself i had to laa. otherwise eh throw face man.
i'm so much older than her! and with a decade more trng.
ahahaa.

yay. there's 2 PL-lites in there now.
my junior joined too. muahahaa.
teehee. more english!!
hawhaw ((x

it never felt so good playing in goodolecompany :D
so PL. hawhaw. minus the fact that we had more balls around and
we could attack as much as we wished!
until our hands were aching and muscles sore.
but it all doesnt matter (x
YAYAYAYAYY! we would never have been able ta do it under OLDMAN's watch.
ROARRRR.

i'm so happy.
ahahha. hilarious. sore but happy.
hawhaw.
well. i guess playing tabletennis does make me happy.
makes me as happy as if i was dancing.
MUAHAHA

aiyo. today during class break, the topic on the world's coming to an end
was brought up.
hokay. uhhh actually i started it.
cus' i read some pop up on my comp last night and it was talking about
the end times and all the predictions taken from the bible and it was all coming true..
then i read it out to fut and we were both kinda ..............................

cus' its hard to say now whether we'll be the few to get raptured or like..
i dunno. like go heaven.
cant say until it happens.
and i read about tribulation and all stuffs. x(
its very unhappy.
and its a fact that we cant change is that.
its gonna happen in this generation.
that its the end already.

ahaha. hokay. anyway. yea i was asking around...
CHEW YC and NAHNAH.. and fut too..
we were just talking... and i brought it up with them.
FUT ASKED ME TO.
then yea everyone became all worried and scared.
then YC said. aiyah you all christians believe you're going to heaven what right.
in the " then why you needa worrry " tone.
and me and fut were like. huh. we intend to go to heaven..
but we cant exactly know if we would..
its not predictable What.

then like i asked if they all believe that this world has a God.
and about whether there's a Heaven and Hell.
sigh.
well i just hope that the pop uup window from "MEGAbible"
will pop out on their screen and that they'll read it for themselves.
cus' its hard to tell them..
but well the predictions that came through are From the bible.
so i suppose they'd believe that the bible is really true.
i dunno.
anyway.
enough about that laa.
ahahaa.
we still have ta live everyday properly and all.

YAY! i start at 1 tmr.
hawhaw. and driving's at 1030 and not 7am.
MUAHAHAHA.
okay. i'm turning in.
gonna have an early night cus' i'm toatlly drained.
i woke up in time ta attend lecture at 8am!!
roarrr. and didnt leave sch till 9pm.
with a super long lecture in the afternn.
lalalala.

hokayy.
tunrning in.

i hope more people will question about the world and the end of it.
and that they'll turn to the bible for answers since all the predictions
were made from there.

there's an urgency that i think is so very crucial at this point.
but i think i needa find it and have it too.

2008-05-11T00:17:00.002+08:00

alamaks
my calculator has gone missing =X
veryvery Bad.
shoot.
i've got 3tuts regarding pharm calculations.
ROARRR.
seriously cant find it anywhere.

how great. arghh.
so annoying.
i've gotta finish them up.

i'll be gone and sleep by 1 tonight x))
studying out tmr.so needa keep awake.

i've got EYEBAGS.
omg. after being lucky ta avoid them during the
late hours while mugging
now i get it.
its the after effect of prolongedd inadequate sleep.
lalala.

it'll go off soon, hopefully.

ohman. the tests are so out of nowhere.
and i'm forced ta study every single wk.
roarrr. anw that should have been the way all along.

blahhs.
my face is getting chubby again!!
OHNOOOO.
nonono.

heard that last night's thunder was real bad.
and it was unusually weird.
i totally slept through it.
gosh.

2008-05-08T22:18:00.002+08:00

:D

its been so fun in school this week.
though i've been getting less than 5hrs of sleep every night.

but well.
german club had its orientation and i helped out.
omg.
its so scary ta pronounce german words in front of so many ppl!! x\
then it was a helluva mad and crazy time with CHEWWW and rest.
CHEW is a nutcase!
she keeps fighting with me.SILLY labpartnerr.ROARR.
we FOUGHT in the lab, in front of the teacher, in the middle of the class.
omg. ahahaa.
its sodamn fun ta PRESS YOU CHEWWW!! muahahaa.
eh stop BEING SCANDALOUS man!
TSK.

training's been real fun too.
though my hands stil tremble.
at the thought of the action of playing that stroke causes it to shake x(
i'm working on it though.
getting the feel back.
i'm just glad i'm not restricted to play a certain way now.
and i can attack so much.
until everytime i come back with an aching arm.
but it doesnt matter.
what matters is i get to play what i love most (:

but its just a very different environment.
alittle adjustment to do.
but i think it'll be just fine.
hopefully i'll improve in time for the competition.
sheesh.
i just wana be able to play normally again.
without fear.

its finally friday!
coffee didnt work for me today.
maybe i'm really shagged.
as usual.
so much work and all piling up.
the reports are like artpieces man.

i think i just cant draw microscopic images.
sheesh.i draw them as though i'm doing art.
with all the shading and all.
duh.i havent taken bio before.
so yea. hopefully i dont get marked down.
a mark up will be good.
yearight.its not even artclass.

ROARRR.
the week's coming to an end!
good and bad,
okay no details.
anyway.

i jst got a real funny comment from a tabletennis mate.
ahahahaa. shant say it. way embarrassing.

and CHEW stil owes me fish and co. cus' she made me so
freaking embarrassed until i was turning red and blushing so much.
kuku. aiyoo =XX

hokayy.
back to my bks(x

this wk's been gooooood! :DDD

-

2008-05-01T02:13:00.006+08:00

Driving in the circuit is an ULTIMATE killer.
omg. ahahaha. funny.
but it went alright.
ahaha.
especially the S shape roads.
and the slope. super funny.
hahahaha!
go down the slope never hold the brake.
MUAHAHA.

anyway.
my lecturer is FUNNILYMAd and hilarious.
wth.
whatever happens in the lab stays in the lab.
babababbaa.

i was being weird that night =\

AHCHIEWhuahua came down ta AmkHub ta meet Mua.
where we watched the stupidest but funny show
during my break.

by the science side of me.

uh liver cells i suppose.

skin cells.

yikes. monocytes??!

Neutrophils
CHEWZIHUI's blood has RARELY any lymphocytes.
tsktsk.
boost your immunity system Pincher.
otherwise you'll not be strong enough to defend when
you go mad and start disturbing me, the close
proximity when i whack you upsidedown, the yelling
and coughing, all the germs will hop onto you.
-____-

HOLIDAY TMR!
and i keep forgetting.
Right.

omg.
this coach is really the opposite of mr kim.
she kept asking me ta whack the ball harder!!
WTH!
i'd love to. i just dont really dare.
cus' for a decade i've been scolded for doing so.
and now i've got all the freedom.
sheesh.
this is how it should have been man!
damn.
felt like i've just wasted more time.
and i needa start brushing up my skills.

this yr there's 2 china girls that joined.
when there's better players, there's a challenge.
makes you work harder.
like now. i cant wait to go training every time to improve
my smashing.
the only thing i love SO much about tabletennis.
that was taken away from me.
it used to be 1/4 attacks and smashes, 3/4 cut ball.

now its the WHOLE LOT opposite!
almost all the time is attacking and Smashing!!
woohoo. oh but guess what.
its only the 2nd practice and uhm.
i think i might have stretched something.
x(
too much attacking and smashing.
my muscle appeared again after just 1 practice.
Right.
hmm. i thought i might have twisted my wrist.
but not really though its more like the muscle or tendon around the bone
that hurts real bad.

my last 3 finger hurt so bad today when i was playing.
i couldnt turn my wrist properly cus' it hurt so bad.
alamaks. its swollen x(

hopefully its not tendonitis or something.

and i've got an aching butt on which i cant sit properly.
and an always sore shoulder after trng.
and uneven arms again.
ahaha.
to the gym i'll go.
ya right.

okay i have to get rid of the fats before i hit the gym.

liverpool vs chelsea
mooooolaaalaaaa.

2008-04-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

mymy.
feel as though age has caught up with me.
yes wth.
i feel so aunty with an aching back after
coming from the market with her hands full
and cringing face.

went for my first tabletennis trng.
omg. my hand was freaking trembling
while playing the forehand.
wth. this is the hideous, after-effects of a fear.

but i got over it.
by the end of the trng, my hands werent shaking anymore.
just that i've gotta "feel" it again.
"feel" the ball when i hit it.
yikes.

and the COACH.
coach's wife took us today actually.
she wasnt too bad.
but uh. she and mr kim does have some bad meets.
mr kim hates her and her husband x(
then again.
who cares about the oldman.
i've got enough of not being able to train
forehand because of him.
roarr.

realised tabletennis is part of me even without me knowing.
its like i feel comfortable playing it.
maybe because i've been playing since i was 8.
a decade ago =X omg.

my back's aching.
i'v got back the usual blisters on my fingers and feet.
but its okay.
i like the game.
the kayak team was having their trng.
the ppl i've once suffered through with.
ohwells. its not even acquaintance anymore.
its fine by me. but aiyo.
its like knowing someone but not saying hi for reasons deemed unfit.
awkward feeling when i walked past.
but i'm glad i quit.
ahaha. wouldnt wana turn chaota and having ta live huge shoulders
and bulging muscles.
lean is nice.

aaaaah.
it feels good playing tabletennis again somehow.
havent touched it in AGES!

anyway. to sum it all up.
i attended some "takingcareofyourskin" course that my friends signed up today.
omg. it was the LONGEST hour in my life.
it felt so uncomfortable.
to be stuck in a room full of girls wearing makeup,
all dolled up and dressy.
ALL WITH LONG HAIR..bimbos,ahlians,childishfreshies and vainpots.
omg.save my life.
i was one of the few to rush out.
sheesh.
hokay. that's about it.

listening to a philharmonic band on central now.
missed my mosaic monday earlier on.
didnt manage ta get dinner cus' i forgot ta take money out.
and i'm gonna turn in asap so the hunger pangs dont set in.
i've got a secret hobby. that was lost and takenover by
the influence of hiphop music.
ahahaa.
i love listening to symphonies man.
it rawks. esp after a long day.

aaaaaaaaaaaaah x)) feel my relieve that today's over.
tmr i've gotta be up at 6.
driving's at 730. circuit.
i'd rather wakeup and have the circuit all to myself and a
small number of other cars.
then squeeze when the crowd comes in later on.
so yes.for that i'd get outta my bed.
and come home ta sleep after that.

gonna eat papaya now.

wth were you thinking today.
sheesh.
i'm not dependent on anyone.
trying to use your power of language to cover up
and save you from finding excuses by twisting and rephrasing
it still doesnt justify your actions does it.
making it all seem right when its not.
act as though nothing out of the ordinary happen.
i wldnt have been so jumpy on normal occasions.
but it seems that everytime when i do it, you'll make a big fuss
out of it.
i'm not even sure what happened today.
it was all fine.
maybe you were pisst off.so what.
taking it out on me isnt gonna solve anything.
makes matter worst.
you usually wont have been like that.
and i'm not sorry about today.
there was really something up with you.
if you dont speak up i wont know
what's on your mind.
the air just needs to be cleared.
arguments start because clarification is needed.
not to cut it all off.

2008-04-28T00:06:00.002+08:00

ahahaha.
i was about ta head home after netleaders'training this afternn.
then decided to stay for some reason.
ohwells. didnt regret it in the end too so ya x)

sunday's become an awfully tiring day.
maybe because i dont get a chance ta rest anymore.
anw, Jingsi has braces on that made her talk funny.
AWWWWW. more porridge and soft food.
eh short term pain long term nice. so worth la huh =]

back to school tmr.
gonna go for first tabletennis trng.
i'm gonna have like 2hrs break before trng.
should i head home or loiter in school.
yikes.

i've got a sudden urge to play the guitar now but
its midnight.
roarrr.

aaaah. can you believe it .
i've not had time ta watch my grey's anatomy online anymore.
CSI too. moohoo.
nor hang out ta chill with the BFF.
thank God fut and i are in the same course.
still getta see her around often.
but realised that on tutorial days like wed and thurs
we dont meet at all.
well she had 2hrs of sch on wed.
Right.

i feel like eating apple strudel!!
uuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
x\
no time ta head to thompson and get some.
roarrr.

feeling so bloated.
needa shit.
constipation. and the yoghurt's not helping x(
aiyayaya.
hokay done.

tmr. wonder what trng's gonna be like.
cooped up like chickens in the stuffy hall.
alamaks. hopefully its not that hot.
its gonna be the first exercise i do in 2wks.
minus all the small stuffs.

online shopping is so fun!!!!
and addictive. hawhaw.
but there're GOOD DEALS! ((x

2008-04-26T00:33:00.003+08:00

whoww.
okay.
so its another wk.
well.
firstly.
i got so freaked out with the self-pricking thingg
that we had ta use to prick ourselves ta take a blood sample.
omg.
everyone was walking around with like a bloody finger.
goshh.
ofcourse i didnt manage ta do it.
so my partner had too.
chewzihui had to prick her finger TWICE
because i screwed the first slide up.
so she had ta do it again.
OOOOOOPS.

hehehe. brave la huh.

ahaa. okay. anyway.
it was busy and pack the whole wk.
signed up for like tabletennis, nyaa, photography club.
ahaha. cus' photography club only meet for activities which are like rare.
and tabletennis i thnk it's once a wk. hopefully.
nyaa is like extra i dunno what.
something about just clogging in the time i spend running or at the gym.
then i'll get my gold or smthng.
i'm not even sure.
but anyway.
yea. and go for camps and outdoor stuffs.my likes.

uhmm,
pretty much the rest of the time i'm in lecture.
shortcircuit in my brains. cranial activity < -1
nothing's like going in.
end up wasting more time re-reading the notes.
that's if i even do it.
hahaha.
well.
another very tiring wk.
with less than 6hours everynight.
sheesh.
but its okay.
i'm managing at this point still.
Rightt.

i'm losing interest in german.
maybe because the rest of my subjects are getting more interesting
or maybe really the change of teacher has affected it somehow.
sigh.
now i feel like i'm wasting my extra 4hrs a wk for german.
shoot. after sticking with it for so long.
damnit.
i've gotta finish it through and get the external cert.
but the previous teacher doesnt wana teach us anymore.
bloodyhell. and we're stuck with the new guy.
WHALAU. he's totally horrid.
cant teach, makes us sit in front and use the bloodycomp ta do our work
for like HALF of the lesson.and the other half's pretty much history lesson.
looks like i've gotta learn on my own alr.
he's NOT TEACHING ANYTHING NEW!
ROARRR.
keeps talking so fast and deep, so hard ta catch cus of the deep accent.
and teaches us the simplest things.
just because we cant really get his accent.
doesnt mean that we cant read or understand.
ROARRR.

okay. that's about it.
i love my modules x)
that's all.
ahaha. but i've gotta work doubly triply hard than ever before.
its tough work.
but i'll get through xD

BATH and JB tmr! :D

2008-04-20T20:59:00.002+08:00

CRANKY.

i need my sleep!
seriously.
wth.
i cant carry on like that.
ARGH.
i'm feeling super horrible.
i just need to PUT MY HEAD DOWN AND REST!

i'm having a bloody headache.
and there's just so many activities and things to attend to
ROARRRR>
i dont have space to breathe anymore.
ARGHHHHHHHH.

SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHh.

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

2008-04-19T01:04:00.004+08:00

okay.
my mom thinks i'm crazy.
ahaha.
and i bet everyone else will too.
it doesnt matter.
i myself would think i am.

sheesh.
it is madness.
now all of a sudden.
I HAVE BEEN ON TIME FOR MY CLASSES FOR A WEEK ALR.
furthermore its been all morning lectures.
except tuesday when i get ta sleep in alil more.
Roarr.

ich muss Morgen um sieben Uhr dreßig aufstehen.
und nachmittag kann ich nicht schlaf
ich will mit meine Mutter in kaufhaus gehen.
ich bin müde x(

omg.
driving tmr morning.

well. anyway.
i dont want this week to end
yet i want it to.
first because now the only time i get ta go out
and have free time is Saturday.
which means...
i'm so deprived! YIKES.
okok. no means that its time ta go retail therapy.
hawhaw.
didnt spend much this wk.

i cant believe myself.
that i'm liking school.my friends.my modules.
and i dont have the feeling that i want ta get out of sch asap anymore.
the lecturers are way better than previously.
serious biiig difference.

SHEESH.
i dont wana be group leader for some marketing project.
ROARRR.
i LIKE TO WORK AND HELP OUT, DO MY PART.
but i dont like to ASSIGN x(
ohwells.
show some leadership skills.YA RIGHT.

apart from that and the atrocious 3hour german lesson that i had,
the week was fantastiche.
it was all good.

i'm smiling and grinning ear to ear.
maddmad. but i'm loving my course.
yayayayay. german's not gonna be the most impt anymore.
but i still like language.

anyway.
okay gute nacht und schlaf gut!
Schones Wohenende!

2008-04-18T00:19:00.002+08:00

I AM LOVING SCHOOL.
THE MODULES ARE FANTASTIC
but its harder to Understand.
So needa REALLY get a hang of it.
read the bloodynotes 5TIMES to do the tutorial.
the questions asked were so open till i cant
really get what they wanted to know.
BUT ANYWAY.
LOVE IT x)) its INTERESTING.
hawhaw.

precisely why i've no time to blog because
i've gotta be up early and i need my 8HOURS of PRECIOUS SLEEP.
so i'm gonna turn in now.
i'm glad tmr's FRIDAY.
totally SHAGGED after this week.
ALL THE INFOS TO REMEMBER AND THE LONG HOURS.
but its WORTH IT ALL :DD

i'm left with 7hours of SLEEP x\
tchusssssssss.

2008-04-14T22:35:00.002+08:00

omg. so embarrassedd.
i did it AGAIN.
Sorry =X blogged at the wrong blog.

hmmm.
sometimes i wonder why people are so quick to judge.
that they think it was already expected and they believe they know it.
just that they're like 'oh,she finally said it'
and starts questioning you and shooting it all out.
seem like they know it all when they Dont.
like they can read you like a book.
No they cant.
its human nature to judge isnt it.
its so fast that the thought drops into one's head.
you tell and let someone into your life because of the status,Friends.
hoping they'll understand,No they dont.
tables turn and you're being questioned.
and they talk as though they know it all. They dont.
i dont remember putting gym first.
sigh.
its difficult.
and No.
i'm not the same person i used to be.
people change.
Slowly. but they do.
dont use what i've shared before against me.
Sigh.
i dont know man. i'm not pisst.
guess i'm just disappointed. kinda upset.
ohwells.
its okay.
wont matter anymore.

okay.
FINALLY.
i'm beginning to like what i'm studying
haha.
it can get pretty dry at times.
but its all good.
i like it.
Human biology,anatomy, physiology.
ahaha. yayayay.
and everything else to do with drug dosage and administration.

but then again.
i dont know.
i should just take a day at a time.
sigh.
somehow it doesnt feel the way it should.
then again okay. i should shut up.
how the hell would i know what way it should feel.

timetable is horrid.
but i've got better teachers.
much better actually.
and the classes are small.
supersmall actually.
because most of the time its just 50ppl in a lecture.
only for marketing and the basics then its still combined
with the huge groups from MB.

i love my diary x)

2008-04-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

TAADAA! x)) ahaha. CONTENDERASIA RAWWKSS! it was AWEEEEESOMEEEE. hawhaw. today saves the week!! YAYAYY. so it helps being hopeful xD hehee. it was fantastic man the match. WOOHOO :DD Thailand WONNN. as usual. if they dont excel in muaythai something will be wrong. heheh. the Aussies were alright. Good show. but majority of the crowd were supporting the Thai. it was a good performance by all of them! the pictures are all on my cam. will upload them sooon! hehehe. had a haircut today too x)) rawkss. ahaa. cus' i didnt say much but the lady just gave me what i wanted. actually not what i wanted. but what my MOTHER wants. since she so wants me to KEEP MY HAIRR. roarrrr. and just when i decided to keep my hair. short hair's back in fashion! arghhh. and most of the women that i saw at indoor looked good in shorthair!! argh. i'm gonna leave my hair long enough make the mothership happy. snap a picture and snap the hair too. ahahaa. I WANT MY SHORT HAIR BACK. soooon. i'll be patient. take picture first. let mother see. then CUT. hawhawhaw. so mean. make her happy for a day. i've got my pay already.heh.from ITshow. yes it was ages since then. save save. hawhaw. i feel safer when i see moolah in my account. ahahaa. now i'm gonna be thrifty again. and the shirts that i've ordered has came in too! hawhaw. all the threadless shirts. yayayyy. i can take my time and wear them ta schh..... okay gonna sleep. today was A GREAT DAY :D

2008-04-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

crumble.
applecrumble.

misconceptions are the no.1 killers.
and the look in someone's eyes that
can already tell that you've been judged.
all the bloody stereotypes.

what a terrible wk.
an extent that today was the last straw.
and it broke.
aside from the premonitions of death i'm having again,
the nightmares, not as bad until i could hear my heart in my ear,
but still. what is wrong.
and to add on, i am invisible at home, uhm.
not looking forward to sch reopen,
bad news from sch, not meeting expectations,
blemishes are back, mental tortures,
lack of sleep, stucknosephlegmcough,
tried to swim but the water stinks, so no exercise either,
maybe all this is just the equivalent of a bad wk.
ROARRRR.
what's wrong with me.
things just in a flash seems to go all haywire
and out of my way.

the hope that things will get better fades.
but then again, what else will there be but
to force ourselves to hope again.
that's all there is to a new day.
that it would be better.
and everything would go back to normal.
nevermind.

i will still be hoping.
everyday's a new day anyway.
its hard to smile. but i will.
(x

2008-04-09T23:35:00.003+08:00

ooh. woke up to go swimming.
managed to. guess what.
the bloody pool was freaking crowded.
there were so many kids and CHIKOPEKS.
euurgh.
and the water was exceptionally dirty.
even more plasters than the previous time i went.
more floating mucus.
its time to switch pool.

gonna try the sgoon one the next time.
seriously.
cant they just bloody clean the pool more often!?!!
ROARRR.
worst stil,
there was BARELY space to swim.
gave up in the end.
swam like roughly 1km and stopped.
felt so eeky. went home and had a lovely shower.
so much better after.

was better later on.
caught spiderwick chronicles.
didnt expect it to be so interesting.
but it was not too bad.
ahaha. FREDDIE HIGHMORE @_@
hawhaw.

Driving tmr!
all prepared and ready.
can't wait.
yayayayayayyy.

i am invisible.
its cloudy in front of me.
dotted lines would be useful.
doesnt matter anyway.
a washerdryer.
tumbling-rolling-jumbling-falling.
something's wrong.
whatever it is not figured.
moody-drowsy-rowdy-bloody
wreck,crack,smack,black.
not enjoying the snack.
sigh.
a matter of time all is said.
unfair and in favour.
when and where at the right time.
doesnt just happen.
it wasnt karma.
dont blame it on misfortune.
an imperfect person.
to have blurred vision.
not a rollercoaster to begin.
a slide down a valley.
why wait.
unmade decisions.
its all a choice to begin with.
suck it up.
tell me this all aint gonna go on.
there will be a stop somewhere, sometime soon.

give and take.
a gift received.
it went unrequited.
went way too far behind.
back off from everything important.
take a step of faith forward.
dont look back nor step back.
one unwary move will cost it all.
assumptions,presumptions.
precision is required.
time is needed to focus,calculate,judge.
mistaken identity, unresolved situations,
inappropriate judgements, harsh criticism.
silent cold war.

a web of strings.
to get entangled with.
what a fool.
still move on.
wishful thinking, useless actions.
some just have it all.
while others should forget.
lonesome struggles, incorrigible habits.
take a load off the back.
the need to get, fine to want.
upset,uptight,unmotivated,unpredictable.
it will all be better. just watch and wait.

attimeswheniramblelikethis,doesntmatterifitcanberead,
it'snothingbutmerewronglylinkedthoughts.

2008-04-08T23:04:00.002+08:00

today's ssuchha horrid day.
but anyway.
had to head back ta schh today for Project.
NE proj which has totally no benefit.
Great.
but yea. meeting up with the peeps are fun.
all the things.
gosh. i just realised my class has so many inside infos.
that i've been missing out on. haha.

i'm feeling VERY CRAPPY and in a terrible mood today.
sheesh.
so much for wishing and hoping for a good timetable.
it SUCKS.
i end at 6 EVERYDAY accept monday which is not any better
ending at 4.
4 out of 5 days.
How fantastic. ROARRRRRRR.

terribleterrible.
and my friend's got 2hrs on Wed.
SHEESH.
can it get anymore unfair.Right.
hahaha.
okay laugh it off.

FINE FINE FINE FINE FINE FINE FINE FINE FINE FINE FINE.
yawns.
Cj and i are having the Worst day of our lives.
sigh.
tmr morn.i'm gonna go swimming.
then head off ta vivo in the afternn x)
gonna catch my favourite guy. FREDDIE HIGHMORE xDD
ahaha.
i'm gonna sleep off today.
argh. so pisst off.

it sometimes feels more like a home when i'm alone in the house.
right this very moment, i want the Wholehouse to myself.
Family doesnt contribute to helping me feel better.
Sheesh. the last thing i wana hear and get is Rubbish.
omg.
that was like the last Straw!
bloodyhell.
my blood's seriously boiling at this moment.
***************************************************
^$*#$@&*#!~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BANGBANGBANG.
dont just think that you're the only one having it hard.
everyone else is.
and you work and study and that's all.
i'm not even a part anymore.
i say hello i get no reply.
neither do i get one for the goodbye.
conveniently ignoring.
i need to get out.
maybe staying under the same roof is just plain du,b.

2008-04-08T00:24:00.002+08:00

hahaha.
had macs for breakfast.
off to the movies and caught Untraceable.
MUAHAHA.
my eyes were "itchy"
and though me and CJ are so NOT fans of such thrillers or horrorshows
we managed through this one just fine.
it was alil too gory.
but love the storyline.
and the idea.
hahaha.
IAMLEGEND was worst than this.

i uh kinda enjoyed this one.
except the parts that were tense and so much suspense.
butduh. its kinda the point of watching the whole movie.
ahaha. overall its good.

stupid CJ's like freakingout at every small sudden actions!
muahaha.
it was damn funny.
go again! hawhaw. mystery is interesting. futuristic..hmm.not really.

yikes.
i've got a bruise on my ankle since sentosa.
the blueblack just partially came out like today.
wth. it hurts so freaking bad and only slightly swollen but no colour.
hahaha. weird.

swimming tmr morning!
sheesh. i've gotta wake up early.
okay.
ciao.

2008-04-07T00:49:00.002+08:00

ahaha.
realised i almost always wear the SAMEOLD thing
when i'm at sentosa.
ofcourse its the most comfortable.DUH.
okay.boring.
the next time i go Change.
hahaha.

yes.
gonna catch contenderasia this sat.
nearly forgot about it cus CJ and i bought tix so long ago.
YES.omg. cant wait.

i'm burnt.
Everywhere. hehe.
good and bad.
bad is its damn hard ta sleep!
plus guess i can be very vigorous when i'm deep in sleep.
ouch.ithurtlastnight.
hooots.

dad's off tmr x))
but i'll be out in the afternn.
CJ STOP TEMPTING ME TO EAT SUSHI.
TSKTSK. mong-ti-kong, honk-i-tonk, ping-pong.
sheesh.
i raise your bloodpressure
you make my bloood hot.
ChildishShit.
tsktsk.
And curb your language dude! xDD
You.BigTalkSmallAction.tsktsk.
hahaha.hokay.chill.
the more you read the more i talk bad about you
in front of your eyes.
this is funny.
Stop it.

ouch.my shoulder's burning!!
MORE MOISTURIZER!
haha. my back's aching but i cant rub it.

fut's going madddd.
hhahahhaa.Thanks for helping me get the stuffs.
and yea. do Update me x))

threw my clothes into the washer.
gottawait abit before i can sleep.

anyway.
my friend's celebrating her 19thbirthday at MACDONALDS'
Right.
Deprived childhood must be.
hahaha.
the theme's like PJ's.
i'm just gonna wear boxers and singlet.HAHAHA!
omg.sounds so AHPEK.
NO OKAY. hahaha. i'm gonna make it look proper and HIP xD

2008-04-06T00:48:00.002+08:00

YAY.
myvoice is way better.
must be the mangoes.
hahaha.

anyway.
went for edge after solong. heh.
glad that my friend made it today x))
and she liked it. enjoyed i think.
after so long.
and the best part.
she said she wants to come next wk.
teehee.

SENTOSA today :D
and the weather held up.
when we left then the clouds started to cover the sky.
hehe.
i'm redddddd and HOT.
hawhaw.
took some superhorrid shots.
but i like the one i took with mrmuscleman.
that's the only one that i like.
haha! got mua muscleline xD

somebOdy just commented on my fingers.
i've got girlly fingers.
tiny and small and DAINTY = faints.
Right.
shall not comment. hahaha.

now i've realised that everyone's swimming too.
just when i'm doing so.ahaha.
i've decided ta try sgoon swimming complex.
the one at hougang is TERRIBLE.
it has like plasters and stuff and mucus floatng around x\
Disgustingg.

sheesh.
i'm getting chased ta sleep at this very moment.
ahahaa. naggers.
hokay. at least they havent been doing it often.
otherwise that's it.

went with Jing for dinner.
met tings in town after her work.
in between did something SO DAMN CRAZY.
now looking back i wonder whytheheck we would even do it.
damnit.
it better not appear anywhere esp Not youtube.
omg. cant believe we did it.
ROARRRRRR. silly pple and their shit.
ohman. everyone stopped and lookedd.WTH.
okay enough.

i'm gonna shower again and JUMP ON MY BED!
BIGlove for my pillow x))

2008-04-05T00:45:00.002+08:00

Sentosa tmr!
roarr.
my bag's still with Jordan =
aiyooo.
its been coming a yr or something.
he's always too lazy ta bring it over for me.
arghhhh.
this is like the umpteenth time that i wana go
Sentosa and my bag's with him.
hahaha. the funny part.
i only remember when i'm going sentosa.
Rightt.

i'm so sleepy.
omg.
CJ's IS A MAD WOMEN!
she drives me up the WALL.
no rather is UP THE HILL.
so many things! EH YOU!
you make my bloooooood boil,
make me get highBP.
just wanting me ta get it with you
since you cant getover the fact that
its in your bloodline.
SILLYBILLY!
AND you're like the ULTIMATE CHILDISH
crap!!
MUAHAHA. nuts.
you go crazy at night too! haiyo.
leave me alone b-iatch. AHAHA.
and STOPLYING when you cant bloodylie for nuts!
i can SEEE THROUGH YOUUU.'
i've got X-RAY EYESSSSSSS @-@
even so i'm not the least as pervertic as you!!
hawhaw.
so retarded.
our little secret what we do at the end of convos right!
MUAHHAHA.
better not say.
embarrass ourselves.
gdnight biatch!

2008-04-04T00:36:00.003+08:00

omg.
okay i just finished ironing the WHOLE
bloodyHUGE basket of Clothes.
sheesh.
so gonna hate ironing for a pretty long time.
damnit.

stupid basket.
the Mothership has been bugging and nagging
from the time i step into the house till the time she sleeps.
Seriously.

Now Get Off My Back.

at times like this,
i would be so looking forward to going back school.
Roarrrr.

sticky like crap and damn sleepy.
have found out i should never bathe and then iron.
so i'm just about ta head into the shower now.

i just need ta rest my legs for awhile.
stood for like 3hrs plus. since 12ish.
didnt even realise.

i was just thinking.
if there's marathon for swimming.
hawhaw.
my friend and i planned ta join StandChart marathon.
but then again. i hate running competitive.
and i Wheeze much. Jo you'll know.hahaa.
hilarious but i cant help it!
maybe i've got tiny lungs.

anyway, i can swim forever.
its tiring but not as draining.
and i dont end up wheezing.
i stil breathe fine.

i'm so lazyy now.
dont feel like budging.

Arghh.
just glad that the stupid basket's empty.
and i've still got my rm to pack.
not that its in terrible shape.
but. ah well. yea.
Fullstop.

my plans for tmr got cancelled.
so that means.
stay home day!
that's why i'm stil up.
i'm gonna watch grey's, pack, eat.
HA.
i love my house when its just me in it.
hawhaw x))

DHT-

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mention but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

this song was on radio almost every single day
when i was staying with my aunt in SF.
heard it so often i can remember every word.
but i like the song itself very much though.
it was the tune that first caught my attention.
the words are like.... Hmmm.
not that suitable yet. ha.

2008-04-01T23:40:00.002+08:00

ROARRRRRR.
the clock was fine being 10mins fast.
bloodyhell.
and so they've decided ta change it back to
the normal when its freaking been 10mins
fast all along.
WTF. just LEAVE IT ALONE.
it was fine the way it is.
this really does show i HATE changes.
especially changes that arre NOT needed.
Seriously. Argh.

Talk to me.
i'm having the sexiest voice ever.
down with flu,crappy throat and a half flowy/stuck nose depending.
the cough is horrid. makes the throat feels as though its gonna tear.
bleahh.
out of nowhere and all of a sudden.
fantastic.Right.
i cant talk.
i cant hear.
i cant sniff.

=\

wenta swim at midday w CJ.
it was so damn hot.
but the sun faded away gradually while we were swimming.
and when we were done, the sky was dark grey.
we got out in the nick of time x)
it rained just when we got home.
how can 2ppl spend almost everyday together and not get bored.
people with the SAME INTEREST. AHAHAHA.

breakfast tmr! :D
McGriddles Rawks.
ahaha. but i'll stick with hotcakes.
an all time favourite since a kid.

i'm going for my cousin's concert tmr night.
prawning on thursday night.
and sentosa on sat x)
if possible, dropping by PL tmr ta catch tabletennis match.
thinking if i should actually.
because i dont really know any of the juniors.
looking at the scores, the sun isnt shining on them either.
so hmmm. besides, the old man will be there too.
hokay no.
staying home tmr :D

Driving today.
didnt do parking again.
apparently he thinks that my parking's fine so just running
through the test roads.
great. my parking isnt fantastic and i would rather
park and drive around those small and congested roads
with driverbullies around.
seriously, as long as they see the Lplate they think
you'll be slow and all.
eating into your lane, cutting in front of you, see you approaching
but just chiong-ing ahead and take you as invisible.
Bleah.
the instructor was scolding the stupid drivers and telling me
ta use my horn.
ahaha. i cant control the Accelerator! omg.
everytime i step, the needle hits like 3.5-4.
wth. i practised but everytime kan-chiong at the trafficlights
to start the car i step so hard.
haha. the instructor isnt gonna raise his voice at me either
cus it doesnt work and only makes me even more nervous and
cant follow instructions. hahjahah!
he talks to me damn softly practically!
AHAHHA.
there was one turn i did and i didnt know i was stepping on the Acc.
did a wide angle turn, omg.
the most horrible mistake i did.
hahaha. his reaction was angry but in a funny way.
then he started talking softly again.
so hehe.
anyway. i was having some problems at the start.
nervouswreck.
but was fine after that.
the more nervous i get, the more mistakes i make.
sheesh.
i should stay calm and focused.
was so tired and sleepy today cus' i went swimming before that.
heading into the circuit only in May.
now's getting used to the test roads around first.

yikes.
i'm gonna take a shower.
then off to bed.
early tmr ta go for a run (i hope) =\

2008-04-01T00:21:00.003+08:00

dangdang.
CJ has been flooding my brains
with R&B music.

not that bad.
muahaha.
makes me wana laugh.at her.
okay shut up.

sometimes i just feel like putting up
the disgusting photos of her cus
she pisses me off so bad.
Ahahaha. what a big joke.
day in/out
she's getting on my nerves.
aiya.
both ways la.
but whatever. hahaha.

felt like some kiddo that hasnt
been ta town in ages or smthng.
eversince there was vivo,
i've been lazy ta drag my ass down orchardroad.
but ohwells.
for a change it was fun x)
especially when we had so much ta talk and laugh about
for somereason.
town really has the weirdest people around.

SHORTLIVED holidays.

my moolah has ta come in soon!
yikes.
need ta get sch"uniform"
saw quite a few stuffs today.
gosh.
its horrible having ta search every morn for clothes.
not adding a fact that i'm always rushing to be on time.
kinda plan ta settle with Vnecks in different colours.
ha. on the rushy days that is.

thinking about school.
think about my friends in school.
think about my time management.
think about my attitude.
think about my clothes.
think about my reports & projects to come.
think about my grades.
GAVE UP THINKING. -____-"

the music i'm listening to now is annoying me.Shaddup.
how.
no common topic makes it really hard ta talk.
hard to even hold a convo.
and different interests, different views, Sigh.
Very different.
cant help it but stick on.
Roarrr.
i will try to fit in. and understand or just listen x)

everytime i say i'm gonna sleep early.
always ending up not doing it.
right.
so i'm gonna take a bath after this.
and watch an episode of Grey's.
Sleep.

swimming here i come tmr.
and Driving! hawhaw. ParkParkParkPark...............

DHT- Someone
You can't eat, you can't sleep,
you can weep when you love someone
Feels extreme when you dream,
and you scream when you love someone
If you feel that strong
Can you see that, one.

Let me be your...
Someone to hold you tight
Someone to make you feel All right.

Everyday and night
I wish I was your someone
Someone to hold you when you're weak
Someone to make you feel complete
Every day and night
I wish I was your someone Someone.

Don't you know, I will go,
if you show that I can break through
Feels extreme when you dream,
and you scream when you love someone
If you feel that strong
Can you see that you're the one.

And I hold you tight
You're still on my mind, I can't stand to live without you
And I can't forget you
Wherever you are, you're still on my mind.

2008-03-30T23:47:00.002+08:00

i'm watching Bollywood yet again x)
its secret on my to-do list.
last one i suppose.
next wk will be a thai show alr.
the comedy.Ironladies.
there goes Bolly-ies.

yikes.
've got a horrible terrible habit.
of going like ''HUHHH..." and "WHATTT??"
when people mumble or maybe
i didnt hear properly.
sheesh.
hahaa. i should stop it.
it sounds disgusting.

so much for wearing hipsters.
someone said i walked like an ahbeng
when i wear my pants low.
bleahh.
i dont stick my hips out when i walk hello.
it was just that day cus' i was having muscle acheee x\

everytime i say i'll sleep early.
i dont ever get down to doing that.
grey's is damn nice ta watch.
next show will be Bionic Women.
according ta sisss.
she says its good. keine idee.

why do pple always msg at the wrong time.
aiyahyah.
its so hard to meet up at times.
i wana go changi village at eat sometime again.
okay.the next time i head ta pulauubin ta cycle.
at the same time drop by.

back to grey's yo x))

2008-03-30T04:19:00.006+08:00

MUAHAHA.
finally changed my skin.
though i would stil prefer the previous.
but anyway.
this should be easier to read x)
pooreyes.
and i realised
that my siss has been deprived of seeing me.
so here are pictures for you! hawhaw xD

at Haji Lane

Pingpongerrss x))

This picture resembles the photos i saw of you
when you were a kid!!
Doesnt it??!!!
hahahaa

this was during one of the youth outreaches.
ANDAND.
i found more photos x))
of us! hawhaw.
Ancient.
its like nearly a decade ago!OMG.
i look disgusting.
but in any case, i hope it'll cheer up your day when you see them :D

2008-03-29T23:55:00.006+08:00

The Larger the Portion,
The More We Eat.

ohgreat.
so i should start going to the movies with
smaller buckets of popcorn.
so i dont eat so much.

popcorns are so irresistable.
ahahaa.
i love the microwave-able ones from US x)
hawhaw.
so fattening!
Roarrr.

Proteins can help to keep us full for a longer time xD
yes. its obvious.
i just watched the docu again.
hawhaw.

So, can keeping track of what we eat make a difference?
Yepp x) proven. haha.

can dairy help you absorb less fat?
High calcium diet releases more fats from your faeces.
so your body doesnt store the fats.

yikes.
and i'm so gonna learn how to cook at home.
healthier diet.
means less cals.
hokay. for the sake of losing weight.
i'll LEARN TO COOK =\
sohateevenjustbeinginthekitchen.
damnit.

okay gonnashower and have an early night.
otherwise i'll look crap tmr.

-Only fooling myself
I stop to catch my breath
And I stop to catch your eye
No need to second-guess
That you've been on my mind
I dream days away, but that's okay
It's like I want to hear a silent sound
And then hold it in my hand
But a rose won't blossom from a ground
Of desert sand, but I like to pretend that

One day I'll turn around
I'll see your hand reach out
I'm only fooling myself, yeah, yeah, yeah
But maybe when you smile
It means you'd stay awhile
Just maybe you'd save me now

Well, now it's etched in stone
That I can't survive alone
You have the missing piece
That I need so desperately
Yes, I slip away to a day that'll never come
It's like a splash of water to my face
When I suddenly realize
That you could never find a place
For me in your eyes
and I don't know why I keep thinking

One day I'll turn around
I'll see your hand reach out
I'm only fooling myself, yeah, yeah, yeah
But maybe when you smile
It means you'd stay awhile
Just maybe you'd save me now
It's love in disguise
I'm lost in your mind
I'm lost in your eyes

2008-03-28T15:58:00.002+08:00

x)) i need food.
i'm stuck at home and
the laziness to get out is
not letting me get my Fish soup.

sheesh.ahahaa.
i'm having like fish soup craving or
whatever its called.

i just had it yesterday.
and i wana eat it again.
sheesh.
like how i can eat cheesebread for
every single meal when i was young.
ahahaha.

so i love repeats.
well yea actually i do.
i can listen to the same song a few too many times.
and watch the same old movie
thousand and one times and i'll stil find it funny.

i wanted to head ta gym today.
but i got up Verylate.
so there goes.
the only thing is Ponggolpark.okay.
Roarr.
today's a lazy day.

i dont even feel like meeting my mum later for dinner.
boooo.
okay. maybe i should go for a run later.
wake myself up at the same time.
sheesh.

went swimming yesterday and swam 5.2km
wanted to do 6k was the dark clouds set in
so i wanted to get out of the place and head to shelter
before it pours.

maybe i should go back to swimming every wk.
but its so bad for my skin!
i've got crocodile skinbecause of it x\

how come i can swim so much but i cant run as much.
ARGH.
its harder to breathe running somehow.

anyway. ahahaa.
did a few other crazy things yesterday.
wenta bed early this morning.

yikes.
i'm wondering if i made the right decision.
but then again.
it doesnt really matter.
wait for the outcome.

my stomach and lower ribs are aching from
yesterday's swimming for some reason.
i thought it should have been my hands and legs instead.
i cant laugh, cough oh GOSH. and run.

okay, looks like no jogging today x))
hawhaw.
i'm being lazy today.

2008-03-26T22:46:00.002+08:00

WHALALALA

Right.
finally i've caught up on my sleep.
dont know what has got me up every morning.
then again.
i hope i can just start waking up earlier
and start going for morning jogs.
ROARR.

i just cant do that.
ohwell.
i'm gonna start next monday.
yearight.
HOPEFULLY.
ahaha.

my sleep's too important right now.

well.
i've got 3 more wks and sch starts.
that's pretty fast.
considering that i'm not working and i still think
time passes fast.
i wana do those 3-4day kinda thing.
its quite fun.
sheesh.
and the moolah's quite a handful too x))
but too bad.
no chance this time.
next sem break perhaps.

YES.
fast is good.
it'll be YR2!
woohoo!
hawhaw.
this time i've really gotta make it happen.
my results were disappointing this time.
x(
i cant stand it.
sometimes this kinda results
pushes me ta do better.
argh.
why cant i just maintain man.
sheesh.
okay.
enough of being conceited.
nothing proud about it anyway.

argh.
cant believe it.
okay.
i'm kinda looking forward to sch reopen.
so that i can prove myself to my parents again.
and i'm looking forward to GERMANlesson!
lalala.
my mum cant understand why i love german so much.
but i do.
sheesh.
if language was a popular and highpaying course,
i would love to master in language,
study as many different languages as possible.
be an ineterpreter or something.
sigh.
yea if i had the $$$ too.
german,french,italian,spanish,japanese,korean,portugese!
If only.
realistically. its impossible.
nvm x) there's many other things.

DRIVING TMR!
yayayayyayy.
hopefully i stil rem how to do the V and P parkings.
hawhaw.

caught a movie with my old buddies again.
stupid movie but Good company x))
teehee.
they were discussing about Uni application and all.
its good that i went poly.
uni admission is getting tougher.
gosh.
they were busy applying into all the 3unis.
and having to worry if they'll be able ta get in.
then again.
i'll have to face the same shitty feeling
when i'm done with poly.

better be keeping my grades up.
or i can say goodbye to further studying x(
i have no idea still why i went into this line.
maybe its the prospects again.
but i'm in it so i'm gonna stick to it.
to the end.
then will see what happens after that =\

sheesh.
i should stop thinking.
ANDAND
omg.
before i forget.
i had the WEIRDIEST dream last night!
arghh.
freak me out like anything!
damnit.
what a dream.
probably didnt get a gd rest too
cus there were pounding sounds at 8 in the morning!?!?!!
seriously.
wth.
okay.
gonna watch my AI.

chowchow.

2008-03-24T01:31:00.002+08:00

just watched some mixed english and indian bollywood
show on artscentral called chocolate.

it was freaky.
the ending was so unexpected.
its good x))

hehh.
i like ta watch such shows.
they talk about the conclusion throughout
the whole show.
it was an investigation.
but only till the end there was a twist in the ending.
hehheh.

hokay.
i'm getting drowsy again.
as though i can just fall asleep here.
freaking tired.

3 more wks till sch reopen.
damn.
i'm kinda looking forward.
hahaha.
its boring now.
without a goal.

2008-03-22T03:09:00.002+08:00

its freaking late.
my eyes are shutting from lake of sleep.
slept like 4hrs yest.
best.
and i was out the whole day today
nearly half dead.
i should start drinking coffee again.
and taking vitamins.

tmr's gonna be another early and long day.
mum wants to wake up early for breakfast
and head out to find her stuff.

i want to sleep.
roarrr.

anyway.
thanks Esther,
you make YUMMI-licious dinner x)
i loved it.

thanks JJ for the dried mangoes!
fantastic movie bite.
teehee.

well. all of all. my day ended fantastically.
though i was zombi-fied towards the end.
my head's weighing a ton.
but it was better than the bad days.
yest and the day before.
bleah. horrible.

okay.
tobedigo.

2008-03-20T00:58:00.002+08:00

THIS MADE ME LAUGH.
like seriously.
cus' my friend was talking.
and i was like eh. what's that
and she stuck it out.
i BURST OUT LAUGHING like anything.
ahahahahahaaa.
it was damn corny laa.

then while i was finding the picture for the top.
i found this.
so nice the colour!
hawhaw.

2008-03-20T00:34:00.002+08:00

THINGS ON A LIGHTER TONE

hahaha. driving always makes me happy.
though i drove with soaked socks and shoes.
and kept making squeaky sounds.
but aside from all that.

i learnt
VERTICAL AND PARALLEL PARKING
today.
hawhaw.

it was SUPER FUN!
hehehe.
the pole's are DAMN HELPFUL.
uhm.
the instructor was saying
"you must have practised illegally on your own right"
then after that he said again
" i think you did practise illegally la right"

WTH!
if somebody even lends me their car.
OFCOURSE I WOULD.
but otherwise.
NO! i dont have a car.

he cant believe that a GIRL can drive i guess.
gosh.
the only prob i have is to move the car
from stationary at trafficlights.
i dunno. its like slow.. or too fast.
damn it.
not smooth enough.

other than that,
the U-turn was easy alr.
hmm.
practise more parking.
i kinda like parking.
fun =)

ohwell.
i cant wait for my next lesson!!
YAYAYAYAYY.
i love driving.
makes me happy.

i uhm. lost concentration for awhile
during driving.
and killed the engine once.
cus' i started from stop on 2nd gear.
yikes.
and jam break once.
sheesh.

ohwell.

there's an infection on my ear too.
one of it.
there was like pus and blood.
and its swollen x(

2008-03-20T00:21:00.002+08:00

met an old friend today for dinner.
ohman.
today's a horrid day.
since last night rather.

cant believe it.
i'm gonna be so dead.

okay anyway.
today.
met cheryl and nic for lunch.
and it started raining cats and dogs
just when we were about to leave.
so we ran to the station.

and i ran ahead.
there was this girl running
from the opp direction and we
COLLIDED.
head on collision please.
WTH.
but i dunno.
either i was strong or something.
she flew to the side but i just
got bruised by her elbow and knuckles
real bad.
big fat blueblack.
then again was running for shelter from the bus stop
this guy suddenly dashed out in the opp direction
in my path. wth.
and when walking through one of the shops
my knee almost knocked the things off.
DAMNIT.

then.
i was left utterly broke.
cus' of a spree and tickets for muaythai
contender asia finals held at indoorstadium.

head for driving lesson.
on my way there.
it was pouring.
i didnt have an umbrella with me.
it was sunny when i left the house.

i slipped and almost fell while walking down a slope.
IN front of a Coffeeshop.
the people were like -___-
laughed at myself.

walked past the market.
and a rat scampered acrossthe edge of my shoes.
bloodyhell.
it doesnt get better.

then i reached the driving centre bus stop and
the rain got even heavier.
someone was kind enough to shelter me in
without needing me to ask.
but half of him and me were soaked.
so i was halfsoaked when i entered the car.
the aircon was blowing freaking strong directly
at my hands.
frozen.
but i was too engrossed in driving.
and after that.

i conveniently stepped into 3 different puddles of
water that appeared out of nowhere in front of my path.

how bad can a day get.
seriously.
okay this is the horrible things.

2008-03-17T15:16:00.004+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vll7og4OOMU&feature=related

x)) hip hop dance.
The things done when bored.
Ahaha. More to come.
Grey's!!

2008-03-17T02:00:00.003+08:00

either it was mentioned too often
or i'm just sick and tired of hearing it.

What's up with girls having to be all girly and dolled-up.
and what's the problem with guys and their tagless words.

seriously.

first of all, we all grew up in church together.
not like its the first time you know me.
i am in fact, not the typical girlygirl,
nor do i think i'm a butch or boy.
whatever the hell is.
you can call me tomboy for all i care.
i dont bother.
but NEVER call me a boy.
and yea.
i am towards the masculine side.
so what.
do i have to CHANGE myself and become all
dainty,softspoken,vain and whiny
just so ppl can see.
come on.
wth is wrong with just being myself.
it seriously sucks when after all
ppl just expect that a girl =
longhair,tightclothes,makeup,thin.

so what if i like to have lean muscles.
so what if i love t-shirt&jeans.
SO WHAT.

get off my back already.

STOP STEREOTYPING.

being masculine doesnt mean i want to be a boy.
PLEASE.
if you really actually Know me.
appearance yes i'm more masculine.
but on the inside,
i'm still after all soft and sensitive.

ROARR.
i love my short hair.
but pple Including my parents cant
bloody accept it.
so FINE. i'm leaving my hair.
am i happy about it. No.
its BOOORRRRINNNGGG to have long hair.
wth. then i'll start looking like every other lady on the train.
sheesh.

i like watching soccer, i want to play it.
i want to take up boxing, i want lean muscles.
i love leather jackets and boxer shorts.
i like to play and enjoy myself regardless if at the end
of it all i'll be sticky,muddy,disgustingly dirty.
or getting my hands dirty in other terms.
so What. i can just bathe after that.
i dont mind having a go at repairing cars,automechanics.
i love cars. so What.

i hate the idea of a housewife, or
the babymaking machine. or frilly dresses.

i have a strong personality.
if you cant handle it, dont ask me to change.
Deal with it.

i dont mind or actually like to dress up during occasions
once in a blue moon, which makes it all the
more special and meaningful.
what's the point of dolling up all the time.
Sheesh. why do i need a skirt or dress even to prove
i can be feminine.
Seriously.
talk to me more and you'll see the other side of me.

ROARRR.
yes i know that i do need to change.
but let time handle it alright.
i cant put myself to do it.
but i will try.
tanktop yes.
a start to being more feminine alr okay.
hahaha.
When i get my muscles and abs to show off that is.
and NO FLABBY ARMS.
the fats have to go First!

2008-03-15T13:53:00.002+08:00

this is why i love watching discovery channel.
okay.so after all. i do love something that has
connections to science.

oh and i love documentaries too.
of course in relation to daily living.
not as if i'd like to know about 13,000b.c
or about my "supposetobe" ancestors.
yikes.NOT THOSE STUFF.

well anyway.
i'm just done watching some documentary
on CNA The Truth About Food.
yay. i love to watch them cus' i learn something new.

hypothesis-Grapes improve eyesight-.
blueberry too.
it improves memory.
something to do with the skin pigment.
strawberries didnt work.
PROVEN POSITIVE :)

hypothesis-DETOX diet helps to decrease toxic levels in body-
test group and control.
test grp had fruits,vegetables and pure water for a wk.
control ate pizza,pasta,chocolate and any drinks + tea.
both had the SAME test results after a week.
FAILED :) DETOX DIET DO NOT WORK.

hypothesis-spinach improves eyesight-
lutein found in the eyes is for bluelight absorption.
its a yellow pigment forming a layer over
some colour absorbers or something at the back of the eye.
spinach is the best source for lutein.
a group of old people with a kind of eye deterioration condition
ate spinach for 3months.
PROVEN POSITIVE :) it WORKS!

hypothesis-wine is good for cardiovascular health-
prevents heart disease,diabetes and cancer.
the issue of the French people were brought up.
their diet consist mostly oily and fattening food.
but they were not as prone to heart disease.
3men were used.
first man consumed Wine.
second took a glass of Vodka & water.
Third just GrapeJuice.
well. alcohol helped to relax the bloodvessels.
but grapejuice gave as good results.
in the end the test is
PROVEN POSITIVE.
A small amount of alcohol plus Grapes is good.
A glass of Wine per day is Good.
i think once a week is good enough.

Fancy blogging in the middle of the day.
ha. not used to it.
i've got no plans today.
its stay home day!
watching grey's x)

can't wait for my pay to come in.
and i think its time to stop looking for a job.
damnit,
this is the first hol that i cant get a job.
ROARR.
i'm so broke x((

2008-03-15T00:21:00.002+08:00

DRIVINGGGGGGGGGG ((((x

its only the 2nd lesson but it feels long!
gosh.
cant imagine i've always dreamt of driving a car.
literally, i've dreamt it.
YES.i'm Serious.

it feels the same.
except the steering wheel is uh harder than expected.
hahaha x))
i stil cant really go straight.
ahahaha.
always near the line.

i always walk out of the driving centre
grinning from ear to ear.
ppl who past me must really be thinking WTH.
haha.
furthermore i think looks are deceiving.
everyone there look way older than me.
maybe dressing wise i suppose or maybe they really are.

YAYAYAYAYAY =D
ohman.
hahaha.
it made my day today.
the instructor said i was learning fast.
so next lesson will be VERTICAL PARKING.
omgg.

hahahaa!
RAWKS!

LET ME TELL YOU WHAT I DID TODAY.
i did the BITING POINT thingy,
TURNED A FEW RIGHTS MYSELF.
DROVE TO TAMPINES AT 50-70km/h
EAT INTO OTHER LANES.

did a U-TURN ON MY OWN
muahahahaa!
cus' the instructor was on the phone.
and i couldnt wait for him to get off.
it was a main road with so many cars behind!
so i did what i learnt and
my practise in the empty carpark.
and I MADE IT!
hawhaw.
the instructor DIDNT TOUCH MY STEERING WHEEL AT ALL.
LALALALALALLALALA x)))))

i did a jam brake TWICE.
AHAHAHA.
at the traffic light of course.
but not on purpose.
HEHEHEHE.
too kan chiong la.
ahahaa.
and i REVV-ed the Engine up so many times accidentally.
but ehh.small stuffs kk.
AHHAHAHA

THE U TURN!!!!!
dangdangdang =D

2008-03-12T02:20:00.002+08:00

HAWHAW.

DRIVING LESSON WAS DAMNNN FUN.
rawkkkks.
i love love love driving.
although i think i've got some sorta parallax error.
-gosh. somehow i felt i've mentioned this part-
uhm. alil dejavu.
crap.
okay i shall just repeat myself.

yea. i manage to drive around like damn alot of times
around eunos.
oh i'm such a natural -TEEHEE-
well.
actually i'm quite surprised.
i changed gears too fast the instructor said to slow down
and take my time. hhehee.
uhm. i'll be driving to tampines on my next lesson!
fridayfridayfriday.................................
yeapyeapyeap x))

gosh. its scarily EXCITING!
like i'm scared but still daring.
i turned a junction myself and a bend MYSELF TOO!
hawhawhawhaw.
rawks. driving is damn funn!!
cant believe i've been waiting since i was a kid to
be able ta handle the steering wheel!
WWWHHHHEEEEEE.
rawks.

and and and EVIE said danny noriega's EEYEW.
NO pls!
he's pretty himbo. hahaa. but i am IN LOVE WITH his EYES.
there's something about it that's ATTRACTIVE okay.
and he's cute movements. hehe.
not the kind that i usually go for though.
but HIS EYES....
i stare at him like that. *___*

xDD

his pictures are ultimate GORGEOUS.
muahahaa. i'll put them up when i find a nice one.
cant believe i'm like that.
sheesh. it is definitely SO UNLIKE me.
but Whatever.
it'll go off in a while. now its fun.
heheeh (x

i am wondering.
seriously how hard is it to get a part time job.
well it freaking is.
unless i wana get paid under 6.
which is a definite NO NO for me.
i'd rather not work than be underpaid.
gosh.
i need a job nowwww =S

who in the right mind will hire someone for a month.
haiyaaa.
fine.
i should just curb my spending habits.
and all will be fine.
savings aside,
i do love shopping and eating.
yea eating a huge hole into my pocket.
unwilling forking out moolah to eat.
i'd rather save it.
but well for company's sake, my dearest friends.
i would love love to spend time with them.
talking, laughing, yelling, Suaning.
talking about everything under the sky and
feeling at total ease.
hawhaw. my burping Buddy and all.
sheesh.
and my dearest tabletennis partnerr in pri sch!
gosh. its been 11YEARS! ahahaa.
and we talk as though nothing has changed although
we dont get to meet up so often.
yikes. whytheheck am i talking about all this again.
hehe.
just looking forward to meeting them again.
more entertainment.

oh according to Evie,
i NEED A DIARY.
okay, well i do.

i have a very unhelpful and unreliable memory.
gets people and myself upset.
bleahh.
badbadbad.

omg.
my dad just came out.
gave me a shock.
sheesh.
ha.

i'm gonna iron my clothes and head to bed.
chiew's gonna be all pisst again if i cant get up tmr.
been freaking tired these past few days
although i still get my daily 9hrs.
maybe i need 10hrs.
damn.
tonight 7hrs only.
Argh.
TO BED!!!!

2008-03-10T23:13:00.002+08:00

Dont put people down just to make yourself sound good.
when i know inside you're feeling horrible.
it shows. you feel anger and resentment instead
because you've got no one to blame but yourself.
you start stretching your words and
you dont even hear what you're saying anymore.
it becomes all just bullshit because you said it out of anger.
and to spite the other person.
Stop it. it all leads to a heated argument when you exaggerate.

talk it out.
not throw darts and tear down the other person.
bloodyhell.
let's just stop talking again.
is that it.

2008-03-10T02:09:00.002+08:00

me and my childhood friend.
she was working today with me.
as we were on Friday.

we were rushing home today that we just decided
ta hope on the first bloody bus that came to sight.
and OHWHOW. we ended up in marine parade.
bloodyhell.
imagine you're exhausted, died tired and not able ta get home quick.
damn.
it was horrible.
on top of that, getting motion sickness was the worst.
crap.
but managed to get home in the end.

as of now.
its 2-ish and spanish league is on.
i miss my computer so spent some time with it.

cleverly left my phone at home today.
took my mum's phone which barely had battery.
and i couldnt make calls with it.

on the whole, i'm just exhausted and very very tired.
to the point that if i lie here now on the sofa,
i'd just fall into a coma.
and wont be up until tmr.

i hate sales so much i dream about my job and the things that happend
last night. waking up this morning not knowing what day it was.

finally its all over.
tmr's my
VERY FIRST Driving Lesson.
hawhaw.
hope it all goes well.
cant really rem alot of things actually.
but i'll look through.

gotta run some errands for my mum too. and i'll be free for dinner
with my parents at night finallyy.

my lovely bed, my beautifl sleep.
snoresssss-

2008-03-10T01:52:00.002+08:00

SPORE FOOD DELIGHTS.
-the unhealthy lifestyle of us-

okay.
i wanted to blog about this yest.
but i was way too tired and knocked out almost
immediately after i jumped into bed.
i still love to do that btw.
the middle part of my mattress is like ....
Springless.

okay. yes.
i was at Food Republic for dinner with my Aunt.
we had soyabean drink, youtiao, bakuteh, wantonmee,
dimsum and humcheempang.
how fantastically OILY and really just UNHEALTHY.
gee. imagine the word youtiao says it all. "oil stick"
for translation.
and we of all ages love it to bits.
and the humcheempang too. i was queeueing for
soyabean drinks when i saw the ppl frying them.
they cleared the youtiao, poured MORE OIL
(china brand ofcourse)
into the already halffilled WOK OF OIL, and started
sliding in all the dough with fillings.
this is the WORST of it all i must say.
biting into it just makes the whole mouth oily, and i mean
WEToily.

GROSS. thinking about it i'm already disgusted.
yet we sporeans still love it.
and everyone around the foodcourt was dipping it into their
"taohuizhui" just Great.
gosh.

and the table next to us was having damnoily prata.
seriously.
visitors and foreigners must be wondering why we
asians are still so small in size.
guess we just dont consume that much starch and carbs.
and the unhealthy layer of fats in our body, surrounding
all our organs and all cant be seen.

its so hard trying to live a healthy lifestyle when
all the food just stares at you waiting for you ta gobble them.

i've been on a chocolate craze lately too.
maybe its the stress from this roadshow.
that i cant survive without endorphins.
Sigh.

i need ta get back to jogging at Ponggol Park.
i just cant get myself into the mood again.
damnit.
my stamina ran away.
i get up, eat, stand, eat, talk, eat, sleep.
how fantastic.
sheesh.
i cant believe myself.

no no.
this cant be happening.
its just the starting.
once its started,
i'll get back into the habit of jogging.
and i'll be just fine.
sigh.

i will.
cant believe how much cals and fats i've taken in
the past few days.
eating as though nothing's wrong and i can feel the
fats all collecting at my stomach.

what's wrong man.
my weight is just so fluctuating up and down.
damnit.
and i love eating.
sheesh.

2008-03-10T01:41:00.002+08:00

FINALLY I"M DONE WITH 4
STRAIGHT DAYS OF
WORKING MY ASS OFF.

damnit.
its freaking tiring but
GOOD MONEY.

tell me how now brown cow.
seriously i hate
absolutely abhor doing sales.
but i need to do it for the commission.
damnit.
so much more than an office job.
less boring but more tiring.

how to pick like that.
tsktsk.

anyway.
i was working my ass off the past few days
at the it fair in suntec convention centre.
it was freaking crowded.

thursday and friday was still fine.
but when it got to sat.
it was horrid.
totally squeezy and cramp.
and i was having a bad day yest.

today i went to work with NO MOOD at all.
it was one of the worst ever.
not in terms of how much i manage to get.
but more like i did something damnn silly.
what a stupid mistake. seriously.
i'm pisst off with myself.
i took out my ez link card and showed someone.
who f---king COPIED IT ALL DOWN.
WTF> seriously.
and it was under the company.
---k.
thanks alot. damn it.
and my parents got so worried after that.
damn it.
there was my full name.my IC,my DOB.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH.

i'm pisst.
please dont say anything that will make me feel
worst than i already do.
sheesh.

sucks!!!!
omg.

okay stop it.
i'll just leave the matter to rest.
i cant do anything.
boohoo.
i'm upset.
sigh.
i cant believe i did that.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH.

i have but myself to blame.
sniffs-

comfort me sky, house.
i want to put it behind me.
my mum was freaking scarying me and YES i AM
scared now. happy.
Sigh.

okay.
Moving on.
i made moolah x))
to shop, to eat, to save.
hawhaw.

2008-03-06T01:13:00.002+08:00

i've got a new hobby!
hawhaw.
but my arms and legs and
almost every inch of me is aching now.

i have no idea how i'm gonna work tmr.
alamaks.
and i've got brazed knuckles.

went for a trial lesson for muaythai.
totally love it.
but its tough.

plus the atmosphere is filled with
so much testosterone i feel i can
Choke.
gosh. okay it was expected.
but the place was kinda small
and made it more emphasized.
eeks.
Stinkoos.

i kinda twisted my wrist.
but its better now.
as long as i dont rotate it
it wont hurt.

btw.
i'm like the most Girly there pls!
gee.
i cant take it but to cringe and scrooge
whenever the instructor shows example for us.
cus' he hits really hard and he's fast and strong.
scary.
oh FYI.
he's Handsome, has a Damn Hot and Lean Body,
Sharp Chin and Gorgeous Eyes.
hawhaw.
no. like i care.
at least i dont get like a beefcake or hugedarkhairy.
hehe.

ohoh.
its only 1.5 hrs but i was dripping and soaking wet!
it was all cardio stuff.
and my stamina sucks.

hmm.
kinda not use to the contact part.
where need both heads to be Damnfreaking close
to one another. Aherm.
but no choice.
and furthermore we were all STICKY,SMELLY,WET.

gross.okay. not so bad with girls.
but STIll can SMELL!!
and i didnt want the person to smell me either.
ahhaaa.

muaythai's damn fun.
but unfortunately,
my parents especially my mom is so against it.
she says im wasting money.
PLEASE.
then she says i'm getting too much money for allowance.
YA RIGHT.
its all my working money and she bothers too much!!
arghh.
hahahah

told her i was gnna take hiphopdance lesson
and she freaked out too.
okay. i should just not have told her.
anyway. its not gonna be NOW.
i'm stil saving up for it.
it'll be after muaythai if i stop.
otherwise, no chance.
argh. i need more money.

such classes are worthwhile.
plus i've gotta do all this kinda vigorous sports
before my body deteriorates and become all fragile.
TSK.
its what i like to do.
she should just get it.
i LIKE IT.

that's it.
bodyache.
heading to bed.
OMG!
its like 2am.
damnit.
okay.sleeeeep.

2008-03-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

What Should i do.
What Am i doing.
How Can i do.
Why Must i do.
What do i want.

Whatever the reason.
i cant figure it out.

OKAY!
manage ta pull my friend.
i hope she'll like it at edge.
crossing my fingers.

hahaa.
on a lighter tone.
i'm asking my sis ta get me undies from the states.
hawhaw.
first i can find the type and pattern that i like.
and its nice.
will wait and see if it fits. ha.

anyway. okay.
back to whatever it was.
i got bloody pisst off with someone.
and totally walked off.
but rraaahh.
i dont wana go into detail.
and i apologised even.
Wth.
it was at first my fault.
but after that it became something else.
her bloody temper.
impatient shit.
damnit.

okay.i stop here.

2008-03-01T02:45:00.002+08:00

MUAHAHAHA.
Cheryl and i thought of getting something together.
well just something on 29 feb. haha.
no particular reason but for fun.
and yes. got a shirt w my allowance.
was having exams so didnt spend much.
but then again.haha
save up again lo.

finally got a haircut.
its so refreshing.
after all the stress and hairpulling.
this does something gd for hair.
hawhaw.

so now my hair's even out x)
all's good.

CaughtThe Leap Years today.
it was pretty good.
actually by far the best homemade Show i've seen.
heh.
proper english. and wong li lin is one damn
good actress!
it was all believable.
the production chose the first Lead x)
she really does portray the feelings and all realistically.

aiyo. dropped a ear stud again.
sometimes i do wonder how i sleep.
Jobless!!
Argh.

Tmr's newspaper.
gonna start dialling.
i need a job. urgent.
my goal. at least earn roughly 1000.
i'll be happy if i got 1.3
but whatever.
i'm working for 7 and above only.

if not, i'll just work harder for the roadshows.
some allowance and savings for myself x))

muaythai here i come.
prob thinking of going for the hiphop class.
but waiting for someone ta join me.
aiya. see how.

BATHE AND SLEEP x))
What a Life.
its Enough for Now.
i'm a happy kid.

2008-02-28T03:59:00.000+08:00

THAT'S IT!!

THAT'S IT THAT'S IT!

PHWEEETTTTTT!

muahahahaaa.
its finally all over.
and i've stil got my eyebags to grumble over.

then again
i'm just glad :)

i'm gonna turn in now.
had a great day today (x

2008-02-25T22:17:00.004+08:00

this is only HALF of ONE module.

there were tons of paper.

this once i felt the need to save trees.

the rough papers went missing when i needed them.

turned to white printing papers instead.

its one thing to write notes another to get it in!

today's paper was i would say

a Blur.

ThankGod once again.

gone through the impt parts

at the very last seconds

before stepping into the

intimidating cold hall.

my eyes have held out strong.

it must have been the 30+++ hours

that caused the eyebags to be visibly seen.

at least i managed an hour last night =\

Damn,

i'll be sleeping the next few days post-exam

making sure it disappears.

they were talking about why i looked different.

and realised it was my eyes.

i saw theirs too.

hahaha.

it good not to be the only one.

hawhaw

Hokay.

ONE LEFT.

phweetphweet.

and i'll be flying kites!

got everything all planned out.

included is the ultimate exercise regime.

I HAVENOT utilised the gym nor

made use for the conveniently located

ponggolpark.

its time ta get into that rusty runningshoes.

all the excess storage of faty acids and glycogen

around my waist.

i dont need those love handles.

muaythai here i come!

catching a glimpse of the AcademyAwards.

JohnnyDepp is my all time favourite.

though he seemed to forget about his hair.

but hawhaw. He rocks my socks x)

okay.

that's all.

2008-02-22T22:28:00.002+08:00

going without sleep for 36 Straight Hours
is a bloody Killer.
cant imagine how i managed to survive through that
and sit for exam with cranial cramps.

i can pull out the hammer from my head.
hurts so bad.

its been coffee and chicken essence diet.
no not really.
not forgetting all the unhealthy snacks and munchies
to stretch my eye lids wide.

Sigh.
this is the part.
where it keeps repeating in the head to not
keep up with all the last min study crap.
but then again.

its not likely to get the urge ta study
3months before.

okay. still.
but guess a decent time will be 3wks to amonth before.

anyway.
3 papers downn.
today's paper was by far the best.

2 more to goooooooooooooooooo.
Biochem and MicroB.

feeling the nerves.
just this heavy load on me ta produce results.
moreover, its not studying for myself.
studying to meet the expectation set upon me.
Pressure Much. =\

well.
anxious for the hols.
its cominggggg.
Nearing.
hawhaw.

Anticipating.

Brain juice are almost used up =S

2008-02-19T00:04:00.002+08:00

i screwedd my paper x((

omg.
of all times.
i lost it.
ARGH.
so pisst with myself.

i dont know what came over me.

Damn.
so screwwed.
helphelphelp.
HOW NOW BROWN COW.
AAAArrrghhhh.
i can scream my head off.

Next paper am so gunning for it.
sheesh
can't believe it.
Whatever la.

no mood ta do anything now.
What a crappy day x((

-sniffs

2008-02-11T00:30:00.000+08:00

yawnnn
i needa catch up on sleep.
and stpid math.

yike.
it sucks waiting.
whatever it is for.
its a horrible feeling.
be it waiting for someone, waiting for transport,
waiting for a msg, waiting in line ta use the toilet.

blahblah.
so random.

soccer is keeping me company while i
finish copying the notes.
Gosh.
4 months of notes is hell when trying to
copy all at one shot.
been copying it since 3plus this afternn.
and i'm not done.
alil more to go x)

then i'm off to bed.

2008-02-09T01:26:00.000+08:00

clearing the air.

Sometimes stupid things are said.
not thinking before actually opening
the mouth.
Damn.

wth man.
misunderstanding and all starts to happen.
omg.
cant believe to what extend it'll go to
until i heard it for myself.

to the person a headache
to the other party depression.

haiyo.

precisely why things should be said properly
first time around.
then all the shit wouldnt have happened.
haiyaaaaaaaa.

made it all better.
i think i've been mad lately.

anyway.
went to istana park for the FIRST time in mua life
after 19years.
saw the president and the wife like TONS of time.

so poor thing. they had to like..
i dunno.. keep going in and coming out.
it seems as though they were parading around
and flocks of pple just gathered and crowd around them
take pictures and all.
it was such a Sight.
hahahaa.
i just laughed.
i dunno.

its like his face is everywhere alr.
always on tv.
yet pple just run up to take pictures and all.
aiyo.
okay.
i should be more enthusiastic
but i'm not.
so too bad.

my mom's getting all worried and pisst about me.
haiyo.
i'm giving her such a headache.
oops.
okay. i'd just better be concentrating and studying alr.
its after cny.

time for Mugging!

2008-02-05T00:49:00.001+08:00

my mind's been playing tricks on me.

this morning i jerked up
from my dream.
i was panting Heavily.
and my Heartbeat was beating So furiously.
i heard it in my Ear.

What a horrible experience.
it wasnt a nightmare of anything.
it was a premonition of my Death.

i dont want to say it here cus
it wont make sense. but ohwells.
its been the SAME scene in my dream
for 2 Consecutive Nights.

gee.
i was telling my parents about it.
and my dad was just saying.
just a comment. that
i should Rem to pray especially about it
and say the sinners' prayer everynight.

i think i will.
its so scary.
and no its not the tv.
cus' i've not been watching anything scary
or Whatsoever related to my dream.

but 3 days ago my mum was just telling me
to be prepared.
she always says that.
but just that day she mentioned
about rapture and persecution after that.

it was horrible.
the feeling in the dream was as though it
was so real.
i could feel myself sweating and my heart
Pounding.

i ask myself.
am i prepared for the end of the world
or if something bad were to happen to me
and i have to meet God.
my answer will be No, i'm not.
Sigh.
i Shouldnt be so unprepared.
Why.
why dont i feel the way i should.

its not that i dont rely on God or i
dont need Him.
i DO. everyday in my life i do.
but when it comes thinking about the end,
its like i just feel i'm not ready.
i havent done the best i could nor have
i done what i should be doing.
Bringing people to to God, being in the world but
Not of it, giving a hand and helping those in need.

i dunno.
its as though at the moment
my life can be classified as unfulfilled.

maybe sometimes i just take things so easy.
take for granted.
the dreams have been making me think.
what is the life i want to live.

the song goes :
This is my Desire,
to Honour You.
Lord with all my Heart,
i worship You....

Lord i give you my Heart,
i give you my Soul,
i live for You Alone,
Every breath that i take,
every moment i'm Awake,

Lord, Have Your Way in Me.

this is submission.
this is what i live for.
this is my purpose.
this is what i want to do.

thinking about it.
its hard with all the distractions.

Pray.
Pray.
Pray.

i dont feel like sleeping now.
although i'm dreadfully tired.
i'm gonna shower.
print my notes for tmr's prac exam
which i cant study for cus'
i'm way too tired.
Hopefully i can have a gd night's rest.

actually i'm terrified.
and yes, i'm gonna pray.

ever so often will i be doing that for quite some time.

2008-02-04T02:02:00.000+08:00

hokay.
i'm back!

its school STUDY break for me.
Started at midnight.
i've got Prac exam on Tuesday.

ALL the BEST for your prac Exam tmr Jo! (x

Yay.
breakfast with papa tmr.
teehee.

i think i havent been getting enough sleep.
and its getting visible on my face.
the black eyebags and little tiny wrinkles!
Yikes.

i Just need to Sleep.

Finally the Projs are all over.

Aunt's back for Good from Armenia!

omg. see what i mean.
i was so blur the whole day and now
i'm so disorganised.
Gosh.

lack of sleep once again.
it kills Brain cells and sucks up Brain Juice.

hehe.
went cny shopping with mom.
hawhaw.
she's so aunty!
even i've gotta choose clothes for her =\

managed to find what i was looking for.
Yes!
uhm. now only cant think what shoes to wear.

and i need to Lose Body Fat!
i cant say lose weight cus it doesnt matter if i put on
cus of muscles.
but at least i wana see the muscles!?

haha.

okay.
my eyes are really getting tiredd.
i'm turning in.
Put up pictures another time.

-how do you know if its a Love or Like Thing -
TSKTSK.

2008-01-24T21:49:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA.
YAY.
its Thursday.
one more day to friday!
TGIF tomorrow.

hawhaw.

ahahaha.
i kept choking on my words.
future becomes FUUTOR.
WTH!
hahahaha.
and there were manymore.
damnit.

JUAN! you just had to keep
using it against me HUH!
i love hanging out with you laa kuku.
you'll always be LOSER-ATED
in Chiew's EYES!!
MMUAHAHA.

you're sucha bully.
ohwells.whattadowithyou.

ohman. chiew and i were up to funny things.
and juan just couldnt be bothered.
no it should be chiew was in her own world.

anyway.
cant wait for next thursday.
hearing all the funny things from Juan
totally makes my day :)

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
bath.

2008-01-24T00:36:00.001+08:00

ROARRRR.
all the preparations for tests and exams
are TERRIFYING ME.

've got PRACTICAL tests.
just when i freaking thought
i could escape them.

ARGH!

crap.
okay. common test results are Out.
only gonna let out one.
German : A.
HAWHAW.
so angry with organic chem la.
hate the stupid plus-es.
+++++++++ xBLEAH.
cant they just moderate.
yea right.
then everyone would just get an A.
ohman.
okay.fine.
i should just aim an A+
then i'll settle with A.

Whatever.

iLOVEEEEEEgerman :)
it makes me happy.

such a tiring day.
-ich bin Kaputt-

Grammer's Stressing me.
but i still love it.
consider studying/working in Germany.
HAWHAW.
Yeayea.

TO BED! yay.

2008-01-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

yikes!
had a funny lecturer today.
it was hilarious.
probably not a s'porean.
but her pronounciation
was horrendous.
considering how far she had gone
with the certs and all.
Right.
ahahaa.
i'm so mean.

anyway.
gymo today.
nearly wanted to call it off.
but glad i didnt.
hawhaw.

my arms are prob the only reason
why i'm making time for gym.
gee.
overall man!
okay.anyway.
i should start working on
my abs!

feeling all lazy and restless.
cant stand all the reports.
and yet i've stil gotta do it.
pushing myself now.
tmr's due date.
x\

and stupid web design that i
totally ABHOR.

well.
all's still good.

i've got tons of things on my mind.
tsktsktsk.

2008-01-22T01:42:00.000+08:00

well.
pictures are here!! x))

XIU. when she first put on her Braces.

Cheryl got this for me.
the Snail!
a Friendly One xD

While we were waiting impatiently
for the SuperLong Queue.
Dirty.

our Sentosa Outing.
it was Random.
made new friends xP

All Washedup and Clean.

All of us there.
Yay.
Hope ta go again soon.
had a Great time!
it was SUPER fun hanging out with them x)

been long since 3 of us took a shot like this.
the last one's stil in my wallet.
this is the Latest.
heheh

while waiting in the Toilet....

Waiting again......

My Clique in Sch!
and my Cake which we shared!
YAY :D

Thought this was pretty interesting.
its broken glass bottles.
mostly beer.
placed on Sand.
so cool.
how did they even arranged it up there.
hahaha.

2008-01-22T01:20:00.000+08:00

WHAT!!
ohgosh.
not that i always wana post unhappy stuffs
but its always such that
i want to rant about the horrible.

okay. Yvonne says my blog is so
Pessimistic.
and i'm gonna change it.
cus' that's so NOT ME!
all emo and shit.
hahaha.

okay.
BAD first alright.

Monday Blues.
it sucks.
barely dragging my feet to school.
then today's lab experiment was ....
cus' it was 6 to a group.
hello! that's like way too many.
till most of us have nothing else to do.
all i did was freaking refilling
5mL of d.H2O into the cylinder 4times?!
AHAHAA.
hilarious.
what's hands on when i barely can recall doing.
heheh.

was blogging half way alr when the stupid wire
got loose and POOF!
there goes like the long list of things i wrote.

damnit.

repeating now anyway.

okay. the GOOD STUFF.
headed down to cityhall to meet
Evon, Pris and Vernie for Dinner.
had pizza.
Good Company though the food was Average.
Reminiscence.

aahwell.
missed those times.

Pris and Verns got me Boxer Shorts!
hahha.
they're so funny.
it's cute though.
've got tonnns of boxers now..
small and big...long and short....
Whatever.
hhahahahaa.

tmr's GYM DAY with Jo!
Yay.

ohgosh.
now Reality Sets In.
i just foud out my exam timetable today.
just somehow had the urge to check it up.
Thank God i did.
Otherwise i would be clueless about the exam!
guess What.
its 3 bloody Weeks from NOW!!!!!

Save my Life.
ARGH.
i'm starting to Worry.........

cus' i'm so unprepared.
beside we've stil got our projs and reports due!!
WTH.

this is really bad.
i need to STEP ON IT!

wth have i been doing.
gosh.
can't let my parents down. NO.
i know how to manage my time.
i'll prove it.
just that aaaah.
i think of how close exams are.
and i start to really get all Clouded.
Damn.
actually of all i'm just VERY VERY
worried about Biostats.
i have so far only attended one lecture.
and i have NO one idea on it at all.
and i dont know how i'm gonna
practise Math in like a few weeks.

Furthermore,
its AFTER CNY.
which means.
more time is taken away from studying
to do VISITATION!
and i wont be able ot get my mind of it!

ROARRR.
i am CURRENTLY Very ANXIOUS.
hahaha.
Anxiety Abnormality.
WTH.

okay. i need to Relax.
and just Plan out my time.
sigh.
i hate it.

yikes.okay.
anyway.
i drank some disgusting yoghurt drink
just now and i need the toilet now.

gonna bath and turn in x)

2008-01-17T00:15:00.000+08:00

a beautifully decorated cake.
of the most delicious taste.
with the sweetest toppings.
holds the most yummy and
wonderful interior.
a sprinkle of terrific frosting.
an extraordinary touch.
shared among those special ones
who made it totally superb.
one way or another.
the most beautiful cake.

summarizes all i want to say about today.

what a thanking speech.here it is.
THANKS for all the sweet and lovely msgs.
THANKS yinci,siti denise
for the small celebration.
CJx) YOU ROCK MY SOCKS/
you drive me nuts but i love you to bits too!
thanks for going out of your way.
awwww.-sniff. teehee.
THANKYOU FUTBOL, E and F.
it was a really funny surprise.
couldnt be better.
Vernie Poo dearest.
you're the sweetest thing ever la (: hugs.
NANA, Thanks for calling from Armenia.
and Sofi, who remembered.
and my german class friends were so funny too.
hahaa. birthday song in german ? x)) Aha.

went for high jump.
some sch thing.
i didnt make the cut.
after being inactive for nearly 2 years!
yea, DUH.
if i was still as flexible, i would be peter pan.
was kinda pisst that i couldnt do it.
but anyway.
guess its that way if dont practise and all.
there's always next year anyway.

WTH! there's like an annoyingThing flying around!
EEYEW!

yiles its so late again.
sleepy and tired.
trying to get used to the colour of my hair.
hehe. Yet another offer.

i love today.
thanks to everyone, it was sooo special.

all the sms-es, the funny surprises
totally made my day :)
you've all made me feel so special la.

YAY- a great way to start my 19th Year.
haha. Here Comes All The Funnnnn.
teehee.

okay. turning in.
all the late nights are making me weary and
moodswingy.
JUANIE! i cant wait to meet you tmr!
haha xD

2008-01-15T14:56:00.000+08:00

HEYLOOOO.

gosh.
my sandals died.

i slipped on meltedicecream.
wth.

yest was a terrible day.
cant believe it.
and there was thunderstorm again.
okay wasnt as bad as Sunday's.

then i bought 2 soybeanmilk back.
on the way i dropped both of it.
damn!
super careless.
but my hands were FULL.

anyway.
hehe.
got something from someone
which totally made my day.
teehee.
thankss.

omg.
my butt's ACHING!
stupid gymo yesterday and i think
i over-stretched.

anyway.
high jump finals are tmr =X

TELL ME HOW.
i havent touched or went near the Bar
in AGES.

gosh. freaking out already.
cant believe i went for it.
now i think i'm just gonna
embarrass myself or somewhat.

craaaap.
and i'm gonna miss german cus' of it.
hopefully no one joins.
muahaa.
since when did poly have such
"sports day" in the first place.

anyway.
YAY.
finally gonna trim my hair Proper
and get it coloured.

off noww!

2008-01-12T00:06:00.000+08:00

i'm DEAD TIRED.
exhausted.
finally get to sleep in.
saturdays are sooooooo needed.

just got my new ezlink card.
which is pointless at the moment
cus' i only get my refund for the buspass
next thurs.
YAWN.

meanwhile
i'm broke!
SUPER broke.
come to think of it...
the dvd's fault.

the only reason i'm here
cus' i've gotta wait for the water again.
silly.
pisst off.

okay.
i'm in a grumpy mood now.
my throat is sore and irritable.
that's it to the person who
tries my patience now.
wrong time.

so touched when my friends came ta see me
at the german open house booth today.
heheh.
was so sweet of them.

i didnt know that people should exercise daily.
so weird.
i thought its like 2-3 times a wk.
alternate days kind.
nvm.
it'll be crazy to exercise everyday.
muscles need rest too.

my new favourite word is "kapput"
hahaha. it means spoilt.
i went to say "pizar"
haha.
funny crap.

i'm getting so noisy in german tutorial.
should shut up alil.

okay.damn tired.
talking crap.
can't wait to bathe and tuck myself in!

my throat is really ANNOYING.
damnit. its like itchy, disturbing and tickling
my throat in the NOTNICE way.
Whatever.
gonna get my stuff ready to bathe.

SLEEEEEEEEEPP.
long awaited.

2008-01-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

omg
i'm having the worst week of all.
sickening.

i'm broke.
cus i saw offer for the dvd for coffee prince
and decided i have to get it.
the one with the english subtitles.
haha.
okay. but it was worth it.

sleepy,tired, drained, exhausted.
thank God i finished almost all my reports.
left one and the half.
hehe.

then i can rest the wkends.
i need to relax.
what to do.

yikes.
i'm falling asleep as i'm typing this.
i've got less than a month to save up to go
CNY shopping.
raaah.
i need a job.
sigh.

it sucks when people can go shopping
and i cant.
damn.

hahaa.
this sounds pretty materialistic or whatever.

eh. its called Retail Therapy.
but of course.
i'll save up first.

oh.and at the start of the wk
i dropped my ezlink card on the bus.
all the hazzle to get another one.
damnit.
annoys the shit outta me.
shitted 2x today.

Whatever.
i'm gonna sleep.
sleep away and tmr's a better day.
Ya right.
but better to hope than be a pessimist.
ha.
okay.

Good Night.

i'm having numb legs.
WTH..

2008-01-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

AT LAST!
omg.
YESYESYES>
all of it has VANISHED!

i had one helluva week start!
gosh.
4reports!!!!
FOURRRRRRRRRR.
and an indiv proj that i had to complete
by myself last min.

stupid partner.
this is what happen when the partner is just
bloody ireesponsible.
DAMN.

okay.
anyway.
just its OVER.
now i'm doing yesterday's practical report.

actually its kindof a neverending syndrome.
HELLO. but at least its SPREAD OUT.
and not one whole chunk together.
SMACK-

nearly died of overwork.YARIGHT.
ha.

anyway.
yes.
its a bad start for the week.
missed 2lecture and 1tutorial today.
just to finish the stupid proj alone.
assholic ppl.
raaaah.

driving me nuts.

havent gotten enough sleep.
have been reflecting too much,
overthinking.

and so not looking forward to end of Sem.
cus' i cant sit for exam.
sooooo not prepared.
argh.
i needa catch up on the lectures even.
gosh.
okok.
i should clear up my head and get started.

i think i'll die without entertainment.
last night didnt switch the tv on as well as the rest of the wk
cus its prayer and fasting wk.
and although i was rushing my work.
it was TOO quiet.
and i couldnt concentrate.
was all restless and cranky.
gosh.

if i dont even get to use the comp.
i think i'll go mad in the house.
jumping around and all.

for now i cant cus' i've got muscles aches.
madness.
this is how bad since the last time i went gyming.
went yesterday and today everywhere's aching!
faint.

my stamina has gone missing.
i should say bye.
i hate running now.

yikes.
okay i love running.
its the only way to get rid of all the
hiddenbodyfatfats aah!

my guitar is my bestfriend again.
i need CHRISTIAN SONGS.
people. please send me.
as much as possible.
PUUULLLEEAAASSSSSEE.
thanks =) teehee.

okay i'm done.
back to finish up my report.
and SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT!
YAY. finally.

2008-01-02T01:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

hehe.
gonna write down my resolution for this year.
how often do we actually see it through.
well.
how much effort one's willing to put in to change.

hmm.anyway.
this year is gonna be different.
for myself.
and besides its gonna be like the last yr of my -teen years.
OMG.
it's gonna be -ty next year.

- -

sometimes its better not to think.
haha.

oh.i'm stil online so late because......
THERE'S NO SCHOOL TMR FOR ME.
except German. haha.
no complaints though :)
i love it too much.

well.
just glad i ended 2007 on the right note with God.

haha.
watched coffe prince just now.
some korean drama.
it was totally hilarious.
madness.
the main actress is seriously funny/cute?!
i dont know. but she's damn corny.
AHA.

bubblegum love.
hawhaw.
i love bollywood because of all that.
and i love how their dances have really catchy tunes!
hehe.
filmart!everysun10pm.
yay. finally bollywood at a better timeslot.
hehe.

2007-12-29T00:57:00.000+08:00

i'm FREAKING PISST.
assholes should just PISS OFF.

omg. wthell is wrong with such people.
is bloody annoying.

NO CONCRETE EVIDENCE then DONT SPREAD.
NO BACKUP FOR WHAT THEY SAY then DONT SAY.

bloody cant answer a SIMPLE QUESTION.
or the most basic questions like
WHERE, WHEN, WHO. then GET THE FREAKLOST.
and SHUT UP.

gosh.
what was i wearing.
which day was it.
what time of the day.

dont TAILWAG if bloody cant even answer
SIMPLE QUESTION.
alamaks. can furthermore INSIST that took a
DOUBLELOOK, PERSISTED that it was ME
that he saw.
Right.

ohgosh. the most horrible thing that i abhor
is when people dont get the facts right and
FINGER and ACCUSE plainly.

INCESSANT accusation.

gross. okay. hahaha.
since i've complained and rant it all out.
i'm done for today =)
its off my shoulders. hheheh.

i uh. got kinda physical about this matter.
and about not getting it clear to that person.
i wenta box my sofa. muahaha.
so more out.all cleared.

tsktsk. i shant be violent.
i SHOULD invest in a punching bag instead.
i think i do need it.
ahahaa.

keep saying wana try muaythai and never got done to it.
scared that it'll whack me back or i'll get whacked in the face.
or Something. Whatever.
it has Violent Tendencies yes.

yakyak. dont know what i'm talking about already.

i love net.

not only the people, and that they're prob the only ones
that understand.
but just.
Thank God for them.

yikes. school's starting real soon.
smacks-
and i've not started revision.
there goes.

at least got my room packed.
as in really packed.
till i know where my stuffs are.
gosh. AHAHA.
PLEASE STAY IN THIS STATE.
hehe.
and exams will just mess it all up.

but then again.
after that i can just burn up all of it.
wont need them ever again.
hahha.
just keep the concised inpt papers
for REFERENCE.
muahaha.
oh and of course all the eg.reports.
very impt.so can copy paste.
hehe

okay. i'm talking so much cus' i'm waiting
for my turn so i can shower and SLEEP.

uhoh. better go take some pictures of Orchard Road.
promised that i'll send pictures over to friends in Armenia.
okok. i Will.

gosh. SO FAST!
its gonna be 2008 in like 2andHalf days.
where's the resolution!
and i'll be 19!! arghh.
gotta enjoy now before its too late.
toofasttoofast.
but growing up isnt sucha bad thing after all.
it Pretty much just Depends on the situation.

okayenough.BATHE SLEEP.

2007-12-26T17:18:00.000+08:00

HOHO.
i look ULTRA bimbotic Here.
must be those Hands.

TSk.

omgoshh.

muahaha. i cant stand it.

anyway.

THANKS DIONNE!

received all the sweeeeet things from my sissy.

THANKYOU AH CHEH!

hehe. the cards were LOVELY!!!

i love them. handmade with love.

i have like an envelope just full of your letters since

ancient times!

hmm.

okayy. horrible 25th dec.

nevertheless. its Alright.

next time just remind myself i've gotta pray before i eat.

yikes. Consequences.

OH.and there was this HILARIOUS outburst.

from Someone-in-Church.

which i really thought was funny.

and that person was bloody stereotyping.

OMG.

okayy. its like a whole big joke.

my net will hear about it soon. ahahaaa.

i myself cant believe it.

gosh. i dont know whether to feel angry or sad or AMUSED.

ohgoshh.

i dont know.

my stomach's killing again.

i dunno what' going on.

argh

indulgence at home.

it was so scary vomiting everything i eat.

yikes. okay no more of that. Good.

but its just an uncomfortable feeling.

roarrrrrr.

its been 3days.

get off it.

SCHOOL is starting again.

ARGH.

i'm so not looking forward to it.

then again. i cant wait.

so that another 2 months can past ASAP.

and i can get my almost 2months break.

okay fine. i'm not looking to school.

because again i've got lots to catch up on.

and more to study.

to make sure i make it pass the exams.

bleah. back to long hours in school.

raaahhhs.

okay. i'm not thinking anymore.

dont want to.

lalalala.

ahahaa. i wana PLAY MAHJONG!!

but i got no table at home.

and i cant leave my house.not yet.

TSKTSK.

2007-12-14T01:06:00.000+08:00

i'm back!
finally.
tmr last paper.
some IT shit.

ohgosh. gues what i did.

i was wondering whether one of the contacts in my phone
was someone's.
cus' it was in shorform and i couldnt rem who it was.
so i sent the person a msg.
skinny is this you, sneeze here!

right. then i realised. sounded so weird.
and WHAT HAPPENS if its not even her.
HMM.
okay. i'm not getting a reply......
scary.

anyway.
ha.

gosh,
cant wait for tmr

totally NO MOOD to study for gross IT.

and on top of that.
uh i was already out playing today.
Jing, you drive me as high and nuts as i possibly can get man.
you're sucha a lame shit but i stil love you (:
ahahaa.
yeap.
today was for them again.
ting,von,jing.
ting =Saliva.
and hello, i'm Sneeze.
hahaha.
crap right.

supperduper HIGH now.
i'm flying.
Siao.
gosh. JING! see what you've done!
ahahaa.

omg. i cant study.
nothing's getting in already.
okay no. cannot.
i need to at least read through until it gets in my head.
how wrong can you get if its MCQ man.
with little knowledge and FANTASTIC Tikam skills,
works magic. right.
ohman.

okay. i better stop.
i'm LOSING it.
hahahaa, madd.
omg.
i Love TODAY!

2007-12-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

well.
before i start mugging again.
just thought i'd come here.
for the sake of doing so. Right.
Whatever.

Anyway.
just took a shower supposedly to keep me awake.
but my eyes are shutting.
Fantastic.
that's it for me.

i've got to do it.
present results.
damnit.
okayokay.

yakketiyakyak.

duh.

2007-12-04T17:05:00.001+08:00

ROARR,.
i seriously hate technology.
danmit.

freaking wasting my time in IT lesson again.
arghh.

or maybe i'm just too ancient.
ha.
it will be way simplier to live life in the olden days.
when nobody and nothing were infected by tech.
then again.
we'll be missing out alot.
ohwells.
okay.

and i'm bored again.
stuck in lesson.
cant wait ta hit the gym later.

i've got HUGE biceps.
hawhaw.
okay. i should just lose weight.
diet.
then my muscles will vanish away slowly too
hopefully.
then it'll be toneedd instead of macho.
heheh

gosh.
i hate this.

2007-11-29T03:13:00.000+08:00

i'm freaking only halfway thru my report.
oh great.
ARGH.
i'm gonna sleep now.
cant take it anymore.
shit.
i've gotta be up at 630.
damnit.

2007-11-29T00:54:00.000+08:00

Yikes.
i'm too lazy to upload pictures as of now.
again.
am up late supposedly to do my report.
okay.
after this i will.
hehh.

ohman.
cant stand ppl who thinks so highly of themselves.
dont admit when they're wrong,
push all the blame to others,
make it seem as though they're one head above everone.
wtf.
this people DISGUST me totally.
seriously.
and oh to add.
before that.
makes it seems as though they've been victimised.
and expects so highly of people.
when they dont need you,
they just toss you to one side.

gross.
and to think wth did i even trust someone
like that.
damnit.

its so bloodyannoying.

and other times.
people do need chances to show that they're different
they've changed.
or maybe in the first place.
they've already been mistaken.

aaah.
anyway.
well.
i'll figure all this out another time.
its so tiring.
when der's so manythings on your mind.
i just want to sleep.
ohwells.
lecture tmr at 8am.
how fantastic.

argh.
the best is not to give a damn.
and it comes across as ignorant.
wthell.

at times like this.
you just wished it was all a bad dream.
no, this is reality.
and its only the start.

and now.
just feel its better being a kid.
not growing up.
when everything was naive and simple.

ahaa.
no, it'll be boring.
this is how we learn.
to go through horrible times.
the ppl who take it hard are pessimists.
so the rest,
optimists.
yea.
get over and move on.
there's more ahead.

tmr's always a better day.
supposedly.
it depends on how you set it to be.
our mood.
right.
okay.
enough raving.

there's the happy times in pictures.
which i will upload.
soon hopefully.
hahaha.
no wonder a picture speaks a thousand words.
most of the time,
they're the happier moments in life.
the parts where we'd like to remember most.

back to REPORTS.
this is soo not the life.

2007-11-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

okay.
let's face it.
money makes up for it all.

anyway.
working the wkends are really tiring.
now i get it.

i've decided i should cut down on gym-ing.
before i regret it.
my arms are getting bigger.
i like it.
but i can foresee disaster in the future.

and i'm never gonna hit the gym with guys again.
ever.
they push it.
and push you.
NO THANK YOU.
i dont need it.
i'm not pumping up to be some beefcake.
i'm TONING please.

and though most wont believe this.
i do only 1kg weights.
and muscles are visible.

its toning.
oh of course that's only for weights.
i use the pullups machine.
it gives nice arm muscles i've realised.

okay.
madness.
why the heck am i harping on about it.
enough.

hmm.
i've bee nthinking.
if i'm not busy with reports and tests and quizes.
i'll start looking up books on drawing.

its so stress relieving.
brings joy somehow.

ohshoot.
i need to take a shower.
before midnight.
oooh.
its freezing cold.

what are friends for.
you know, just piss off.
get lost whatever.
dont force me to change myself
and i hate your judging.
stop pitying yourself
or thinking about worstcasescenario
you just aggravate the situation.
iamreally beginning to
HATE YOU SO BAD.

2007-11-20T16:47:00.000+08:00

im in boring IT lesson once again.
ahaa.
can just die.
just finished my peanut sandwich.
i'm gonna sleep.
she doesnt even bother anyway.

i wanted to do my reports now.
hmm.
maybe i would.
we'll see.

yikes.
i'm craving apple strudel and
dark chocolates nowwww.
yummmmmm.

and i'm broke!!
till moolah comes in again.
then i'll go cut and colour mua hair.

i managed to STAY AWAKE
throughout ALL THE LECTURES
today!

yes.
but i stil dont understand organic chem.
sucks.

2007-11-20T00:52:00.000+08:00

so.
yea.
i've got 4 reports to do.
of which the due date for 2 was last wk.
and the other 2 today.
and none completed.
its the harder ones.
those that i barely understand what was
going on during lab.

sheesh.
i took almost a bloody day to complete
one report that i just submitted before midnight.
otherwise counted as late.
was just in the nick of time.

ROAR.
damn these reports.
i CANT finish them!
argh
okay.
anyway.
2 of it, microB.
copying from a friend's one.
of course i've gotta paraphrase and do
my own drawings.
but yea its simple.

uhm the other one.
biochem.
is damn hard.
i dont get it at all.
stupid expt was not put up online.

and i dont know how to do a stupid graph.
damnit.

i'll wait till my friend submits hers on wed.
then i'll take a look at hers.
or we'll prob do it together tmr night or something.

sheesh.
okay.
i better go look up the stupid infected cells first.
draw it out and i'm done.

ARGH.
i am turning in NOW.
cant take it anymore.

roarr.
anyhow.
ha. i came home in the afternoon.
wore gym clothes to second lab lesson.
ahahaaa.
everyone was staring.
right.
it didnt look proper la.
gym was somehow good today.
or maybe i just had steam to let out.
ha.
i did so many pullups.
muaha.

ohgosh.
READ THIS.

i was at the pullup machine.
this indian boy was sharing it with me.
i did one set, 70 kg help.
his turn. he shifted to 85kg.
was barely able to pull himself up.
then my turn again.
i put it to 70kg again but took off the extra small
5kg weight above. which was equivalent to 65kg.
ahaa. his turn.
he wanted to do 70kg. and he didnt notice i changed
the weight.
so he tried to do it again. but with difficulty.
he couldnt bring his head above the bar.
and his arms were shivering.

then later on.
i shifted the weight down.
to 55 but with the help of 5 kg.
so 60.
then he went up, this time i think he paiseh.
so he tried to do the same weights as i did.
and he couldnt even pull himself up at all.
he turned and look at me from the side
of his eyes,
got off the machine and walked away.
omg. he must have felt soooooo
EMBARRASSED.
by me.
ahahaaaa.
HAWHAW.
i'm so mean....
but it was funny.
HA

laugh before i tuck in.

2007-11-19T12:39:00.000+08:00

bloodyhell.
okay.
right now.
i've seriouslyhave to learn selfcontrol.

or i'm gonna have ta let it out somewhere.
before i throw up on someone instead.

damnit.
the Mothership is back to usual.
thanks alot.
i thought she understood more about me.
after all these years.
conclusion. no she doesnt.
how sad.
its Alright.
it doesnt matter.
i didnt set my hopes high anyway.
i knew it will turn around and stab me in the back.

Okayy.
Everything still has to go on.
and there'll be more complaints.
hey.if i cant rant it here.
where else right.

ahaa.

no matter what.
i've set my mind on finding my own
fun and time for laughter amidst it all.

i just cant believe its back to norm.
just when i was on the verge of believing.

sounds like a punishment from God.
for having too much freedom.
hello.for only a year after shit.
now its back to shit.

okay. like i said.
Good things dont last.
precisely why it Was good.

i've had my fill.
now i'll wait till i'm 21.
its not too long.

she's still the in charge.
it doesnt matter anymore.
i wont bother to pick or start a fight.
it was childish and make things worst.
now feign ignorance.
AHAHAHAHAHAAA.
how great. Not.

okay. back to my reports.
i'm home from lablesson this morn to
completemy reports
no time to do it yest was working.

and she blabbered.
okay. so i rant.
back to papers and readings.

tonight i'll be back.
muahaa.

i've yet to face my worst nightmare.
what an understatement.
i will force myself to believe that there's better
things ahead.
now i'm hating it.
sometimes things are better suppressed.
it will apear horrid on the surface.

2007-11-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

OMG!!
just LOOK AT THAT PICTURE!!
the giraffe is SOOOOOOO ME!
cant stand it.
muahahaa.
it makes me laugh when i look at it!!

awww.
i just totally love this.
ahahaa.
its soooo sweet :))

hehehe.
we bought this as a clique.
mine's the sheepo on the left.
muahaa.
i love it!
its hunch back just like ME.
ahaha.

madness.
i kept thinking today's friday.
cus' i only had sch from 3-6.
which i came late for.
so it seemed not so much ta study.

tmr's gonna be BETTER!!
its 2 hours in school.
muahahaa.
but i've stil gotta be up at 730.
class at 9.

well.
i had lunch at crystaljade which added up
to less than 10 bucks per person!
in fact, i paid only 8plus.
cant believe it.
i didnt even know.
but anyway.
i shared a HUGE bowl of noodle with a friend.
and we shared 3 boxes of xiaolongbao.
a box of panfried dunno0-what meatt stuff
and i had 2 charsiewpao.
all of under 10!!
amazing.
ahahaa

i'm so gonna go back for moreeeee.
and it was filling.
the beauty of going out in
a group of 5.
cus' everything's in 5 or 2.
ahaha.
easier to share.

well.
the oldies stil rawk my life.
though it was weird.
like all four of them were
the Uniform people...
in the midst of A's.
they stil do know how to enjoy.
they're halfway thru A's
and they decided to go out.
ahahaa. said its to celebrate
half the A's gone.
right.
and next wk's gonna be the big celebration.
damnfunnypeople.

1/4 the time they were discussing about
their econs case study paper.
right.
i'm so glad i'm not in JC.
well.
anyway. yea. for that short time i
didnt really know what was going on.
seriously.
what theheck is econs for.
man i sure do hope i wont ever haveta
touch it.

for that same moment i felt rather weird.
the feeling they're gonna be in uni and all.
ahead of you.
and its gonna be even harder ta keep in touch
cus' of all their weird schedules and they'll
probably be much more involved with their own
activities and school alr.
furthermore they'll prob stay in the hostel.
which equals to not being able to meet up at all.

and i've stil got 2 more years to go.
then again if i had graduated with them.
i'd probably would have been "pressured"
to go into jc which i strongly detest for them.
so i'm pretty glad i didnt. HA.
this is the life.poly minus the longer hours.
but its really much less stressful and all.
okay.this was a random thought.

they're gonna be on a long break soon.
oh and it sucks.
when they kinda like plan
damn interesting and fun activities to do.
but unfortunately
i just cant make it
cus' i've got school.
nonetheless, at least they always meet
either wed or thurs.
thursdays are one of my earliest.

but then again.
FATbug's gonna kill me if i ever PS
her every thurs.
ahaaa.
its supposedly our day of the wk which
we keep so we'll meet up every wk
despite our very different schedules
and our schools' are so darn far apart.

the central place townn.
its good that we stay nearby.
so its the same way home.
most of the time we take the bus
which gives us more time ta talk
and nothing else.

gross.
i hate it when people say poly is easy.
yeayea.
for some courses only that is.
damn it.
i see no one having ta study or
wreck their brains out.
FATbug for one is adding oil to the flame.
HTM is so bloodySLACK!
ahaa
but she cant run from econssss.
too bad.

anyway.
a HUGE thank you to terrence
who's willing ta study with me.
before i can just sleep on all my notes.
biostats is GROSS.
and organic chem is -___-

okay. ahahaa
that's all.
oh.
and i've gotta tell myself i need the A's.
sheesh.
put me in such slack environment
and i become like any of them.
its like that.
its damn easy to pass.
but its damn hard to get an A.

i've got a gay friend in school.
who is keeping me awake in class.
but i cant stand it when he sings!!
omg. its .........
i can use it as alarm in the morn and
i'll leap straight up man.
its horrible.

there's more and more gays around!
ohplease!
soon there'll not be anymore
handsome guys for us!!
sheesh.
then we'll all become SPGs.
whow. how great.

i'm trash talking for some reason
but my mind's just so
untroubled and free now.
ahahaa.
tmr the dance people are gonna die
from my craziness again.
awww. its not that bad.

so in such a relaxed mood.
spending time once in a while
with people from the same madhouse
is wonderful..
i love these short dosages.
perks you up.
every once in awhile,
its great for something good to happen.
but then again,
it cant always be all good and free,
otherwise those things good wont seem
that way anymore =)

can't explain how i'm feeling.
but its more than just being real happy.
ohgosh.
i've gotta work on my vocab and adjectives.
damn.

ahaa.
project runway is not helping.
i stil cant do it.
stupid runways.
roarrr.
i do hope i can pull it off.
ha.
ehem,
i've gotten in touch with the
feminine side of me man!
FEL!
bet if you were here,
you'll laugh your face off.
nvm,
i can always send you the video.
and it'll put a grin on your face
whenever you're stressed out by bks.
HA.
you'll never believe that i actually AGREED
to doing it.
but ohwells.
at least its a smalllllll part.

okay.
gosh. so this really is me huh.
talking and typing soooo much.
ahahaaa. eh i'm normal OKay.
great i've gotta hit the sheets.
happy, satisfied, contented.
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD night x))

2007-11-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

WHOWW.
today was indeed a long day.
got up and had to rush ta school.
it was biochem pract.
couldnt be late.

the labteacher gives no chance.

so anyway. after sch, went to the gym.
into a more comfortable surrounding.
went for dinner
and off ta meet the BEAttitudes.
ahaa.
well you all better come support us.
esther needs all the us ta be behind her!
she's doing a FANTASTIC job =))

its one thing ta perform.
another to do it and reach out to souls.
she's just the right one for that x)

okay.
now here goes.
reflections for the day.

aaaah.
its not that i'm trying ta distant myself
from them or anything.
but there's just something in the air.
all's fine.
yea if it was, everyday would be boring.
ha.
no, there's more.

people makes stupid decisions.
some that can be covered up and
soon forgotten
while others can just easily get over and be done with

well for one.
i think i did make a wrong choice.
and i'm gonna have to stick to it for 6years.
hellot of years that's gonna be to
pay for a wrong decision.

but its okay.
it'll serve me well in my old age.
but for now.
oh.
its the damn
"what do you want to be when you grow up"
question.
since i was young,
always said that i wanted to be a scientist.
and how great.
the prophesy came through.

sigh.
its not that i dont like the course.

oh please.
spare me,
will you.

then again.
this was my choice.
get on with it, jan.

there's no one sign of a pharmacist
let alone a tinge of science in me.
but of course
i would much rather be gaining such knowledge
then be stuck trying my luck with econs.

roarr.
i'm not indecisive.
i've got a dream.
something i want to do.

i guess its about holding it close to heart
and not letting it go.
someday it will happen.

many people have given up their dreams.
living in such a society.
i'm not surprised.
unfortunately,
this is a vicious cycle.
continual effect.

we've all been brainwashed.

not so much as bad now.
but yes.
taking my chances
to keep my dream =)

it doesnt matter how long
the feeling aftr i've reached that point.
just that split moment.
is Spectacular.

6years.
nah it'll be quick.
will i even live till then.
ahahaa.
nothing is for sure whattt.
let's see...25...
what a ripe age x))

muahaa.
Life will be better if we,
Forgive the stupid.
Ignore the insensitive.
Endure the irritants.
Tolerate the copycats.
Dispose the ignorant.

2007-11-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

the weekends past in a flash x\

and now its back to labs and lectures.
and all the superficiality in the air.
i'm not saying that people or myself fake it all.
but its just..
different.
people just arent that interested in really making friends
anymore.
its more like friends by force.
myself included.
i dont see why i cant get along as well.
maybe its just different frequency.
after all. the course im in tells alot of the people they are.

sigh.
i've got a clique.
and all.
but its not the same.
again the problem is .
after one sem.
i still cant see any similarities.
omgg.
i mean they're the closest to the same frequency
but stil different.
its not they're not nice.
they are.

but sadly..
i dont feel comfortable with them.
its just so tensed feeling i get.
roarr.
they probably cant tell.
they're all on the same frequency.

hmm.
i guess i'm complaining again
because of the number of hours in sch
everyday that i spent with them.
its too much.
from 9-6 everyday i see their faces.
omg.
why am i even complaining.
madness.
i've gotta get used to it.
next time it'll be the same.
roarrrr.
this is just somethings i think about it.
and i just put up an entry.

lalalalaaa.
ahahhaa.
i'm getting the monday blues
on a sunday night!!
whattheheck is wrong.

rRRRROOOOOAAARRRRrr
i hat e s chhoo lll.

that's it.

2007-11-06T15:48:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO
muahaa.

back here after so long.

i'm having freaking IT lesson.
learning excel.
BOOO x(

it SUCKS big time.
and so i'm blogging.

TSKTSK.
i miss blogging.
ahahaa.
shall bring this blog back to lifee.

ahaa.
well. my parents are BACK.
for a few weeks now actually.
hmm. everything seems fine.
for now.

hyekhyekhyek.
i bought a beaver puppet to
disturb my mum.
AHAHA.
she laughs like madd everytime
i make it talk.
she says it looks like me and my dad.

I AM NOT THAT CHUBBY -
boooooo.

heheh
i love my new toy.
its rather entertaining.

ROAR.
lesson is sooo boring.
i want to sleep.

hopefully he gets it over and done with ASAP.
then we'll be let off earlier too x))

gonna catch the gameplan tonight!!
whooots.

yawns.
there was actually no school for me tmr.
because all the tutorials are to be done online.
thanks to german, i've gotta be back here at 3.
BUT at least its something that i enjoy pretty much.

thursday is HOLIDAY.
yesyesyes.
this wk's gonna past in a flash.

ohgosh.
the lectures are getting harder.
roooarrr.
i only get half the lecture.
the lecturer's so not clear.
keeps repeating the same thing
over and over and that's it.

got an mc for yesterday.
yayy.
my throat hurts.
boo.
i need to carry a waterbottle with me
everywhere i go.

yes. its finally the end.
now is 4.44pm =))

MUAHAHA.
i started at 3.15pm

YESYSESSSSSSSSSSS
CHAOO!!! xD

2007-10-01T03:01:00.000+08:00

so so.
i'm back here.

now i see it.
Friends With Benefits.
its kinda scary now meeting pple.

sometimes there're nice ones.
other times, rather superficial.

yikes.
anyway.
today is such a bad day.

its so good that its finally over.
maybe because i overslept again.
damn.

i want to watch balls of fury aaah!

hahah.
what a wk.
okay. this wk.
is the last i have independent and free.
next thurs.......
NNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
the mothership will be back for good.
amen.

thankthank jo that she's gonna give me a hand with the study.
and the lady's coming to clean the house next tues or wed.
yes.
shipshaped.

then i'll be working at grapevine no more.
and live on allowance and savings.
aawww.

okay. i shall be thrifty again.

yikes.
i'm scaredd.
but ohwells.
things will work out.

i'll make it.

though i can predict i'll miss the times alone at home.
tuning in to the blasting radio.
and not having to bother if anyone minds.
no more doing work, eat or watch tv till late aah.
and its back to utilising my room's table and bed.

HOKAY.
i just hope i can stil retain alil bit of freedom and
space to breathe and relax.

dont want to have someone nagging away in my ears
once again.

BBBOOOOOO. no more late nights.
i'll miss it.
but its time they should come back too.
salvage what they can.

i can totally imagine mum getting a HUGE shock.
its as if i'm dropping a bombshell on her.
the hair, the clothes, the dressing, the habits.

BLEAH.
not gonna think anymore for now.
gonna turn in.

ciao

2007-09-30T15:58:00.000+08:00

oohh laa laa.
i was bored.
so this.

Your major personality type = Explorer
Your minor personality type = NegotiatorYou are an EXPLORER/negotiatorYou are a highly spontaneous person who always likes to try new things. Novel and unpredictable situations don't bother you; instead you find them challenging and exciting. You tend to be focused and resourceful and you are able to juggle a lot of projects at the same time; as a result you are sometimes a whirlwind of activity. You have a firm grip on reality and enjoy living in the present tense. But you have a keen imagination that enables you to lift off from time and space to be remarkably creative. You are humorous. You are able to laugh at yourself, and you like entertaining others. You have a deep sense of compassion. You can show genuine insight into the needs of others; you are good at listening and talking; and you express a genuine desire to be helpful. Yet you are easy-going. Your tolerance for others and their beliefs, your lack of prejudice, your ability to compromise and your occasional antics make you popular with others and a great companion.

muahah.
got it from some test thing.

How your personality breaks out

Explorer - 32% of your personality

Known for high energy, high creativity and spontaneity. Seeks novelty, risk and pleasure. Intellectually curious and not easily swayed by opinion.

Builder - 18% of your personality

Usually very popular. Deep attachment to home and family. Calm demeanor and low anxiety. Often consistent, loyal and protective.

Negotiator - 29% of your personality

Excels at seeing the big picture, long-term planning and consensus building. An intuitive thinker who is flexible, verbal and socially skilled. Imaginative, empathetic and nurturing.

Director - 18% of your personality

Daring, original, direct and inventive. A non-conformist. Skilled at abstract thinking and short-term planning. Often assertive and quite competitive. Tough-minded and efficient.

dont really get this part.
but anyway. yea.
haha.
some kinda stil contradicts.

ohwells.
these tests are meant for fun anyway. =D

2007-09-24T04:47:00.000+08:00

i'm just about to sleep.
yawns
today was a horrible day at grapevine.
packed like sardines.

thanks to the stupid manU match.
damnit.
i hate it.
but working with the right people just makes it better.

way much better.
gosh.
we've got a new asst.manager.
last time was the girl alone.
now this guy came over.
so yea.

hahaa.
and the boss is really so -___-
he just hired i think 3 damnpretty girls or smthng.
alamaks.

all see looks only pls.
whalau.
sickening.
but anyway.
i think i like hanging out with them.

thee noss was being siuch an asshead himself.
died.

anyway.
i'm gonna sleep now.

2007-09-22T12:49:00.000+08:00

okayy.
TONS of updates.
but first.
this was what i did in the office on a FRIDAY.

i'm just SO WAITING to get fired arent i.
do i look like i care even.
haha.
anyway.
yea. spent uhh 2hours+++++
sketching, writing, shading, blahblah.
NONStop btw.
so the people in the office were pretty much
STARING NON STOP.
-__- they should know soon that i dont give a damn.
hahah.
they should try making continuous phonecalls all day too.
damnit.
OFFICES are horrible places.
that's why i hate 9-5 routine jobs.
its damn GOSSIPYY. eeyeew.
i'm not affected by all the Funny eye or looks they give
cus' i'm only a Temp.Staff
pity the Perm. tempstaff who's taking over me in 3wks'time.

ANNOYANCE TO THE MAX.
sickening.

uhm.
this was random.
just wanted to see if i could draw a face
with a scar.
but got rid of that idea.
wasnt big enough to plaster down the face.
so haha.yea.HAIR!>!?

took about 45mins to do this.
all the colouring and shading.
and its in pen cus' no pencil.

i've lost touch already la.
haha.
cant remember exactly how to draw.

so hot eh!
perfect lips.
to me laa xD

uhh.
haha.
No.1 drawing of uh idunnowhat body.
but yea. haha.
its slanted aah!
can never draw straight.
maybe i should think about
doing concave and convex designs.
or like uneven split image.
this is obvious flaw man.

ahahaa. so much wasted paper.
so i helped them get rid of it.
tried all kinds of grafitti.
heehe.

hmmmm.
i miss sketching so much.
and drawing.
i wana learn how to draw properly laa.
nvm. every term break i'll spend my time
painting everything in my way.

ahaa.

seriously.
i've gotta constantly remind myself that
i'm in this course because its a booming industry
with so much opportunities and a good start for me
to reach my 5Cs.

my term results are out.
and guess the best.
haha. its GERMAN.
i'm better off towards the arts.

hopefully i'm not deceiving myself
staying in this course.
yikes.
aiya.
i can always be artsy fartsy
while a cabinet geek .
ahahaa.
two very opp sides makes one's life
more interesting and intriguing xD

anyway.
coming back down to here.
i sprained my ankle.
it was damndumb.
hahaha.
i was running down a grass hill.
then my foot got twisted when it fell
into a pothole.
BEST.
madness.
but its much better now.
haha.
i can walk near properly laa.
i suppose.

and just happen that my two kind friends
were around.
so they helped quite abit. okay alot.
hahaa.
sent me all the way back.
stayed with me awhile too.

when these nutheads are aroundd!
There's never boredom.

watched no reservations the other day.
just great.
i was the only one who was pretty much
enjoying the show Alot.
Because.
i was the ONLY one laughing at most funny scenes.
right.
its Funny What.
i like it.
i like romance comedy.
ahahaa.

2007-09-17T01:37:00.001+08:00

expectations.

sometimes we set it on people who are close to us.
then it breaks our hearts and hurts them when such
expectations that are set are not met.

JUST expect. right.

it only works with God doesnt it.
like we've gotta go to Him expecting something.
and we'll be fulfilled.

well.
sometimes i think i worry too much.

but anyway.
i have fallen sick.
due to overworking myself.
exhaustion perhaps.
i didnt know it would happen.
but it did anyway.
so yes.

sigh.
i worry about the future when its not even here.
i worry about having to stretch out my hand to get $$.
cus' i dont feel like doing that no more.
until i'm sure there'll be much more available
from which i get them from.

sigh.
getting a driving license.
it was one of the dreams i had since a kid

well seems i cant see it through.
i'm not capable of doing so.

raaahhs`

annoying the hell outta me.

damnit.
why was i so careless.
why wasnt i watchful enough.

how could i not have controlled myself.
argh.

sickening.
i'm working my ass off.
but its all not enough.
wth.

birthdays are expensive. hahaha.
but i dont regret spending for people i love =D
i love to see their smiles.

i cant wait to see what the mothership has to say
when she sees my hair.

i'm sticking to my hair this way.
i like it.
just waiting for the longer side and my fringe
to grow faster.

then i'll stick to having one side shaved.
yayy. nicenice.
so i dont lose the spunk and the edginess.
WOOHOO!

madness.
i'm going on a diet.
my weight is soooo -__-
unpredictable. one moment it shoots up.
the next it goes down.

WTH.
the perfect weight for me is 42kg.
i was 43, then i ate and ate 48, then diet and back to 45.
gained 5kg lost 3kg.
damnit.
okay. 3 more to go.

i'm SO GONNA EAT APPLES AND BROCOLLI everyday.
ha. yea right.
not forgetting my bananas to calm the sweet tooth cravings.
madness.
i should just start exercising again laa.
whalau.

2007-09-16T13:47:00.001+08:00

WATCH THIS.
MAUAHAHAA.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m_zJ8EGJfMU

2007-09-16T02:18:00.000+08:00

the specs was just for a geeky look
kinda effect.
ahaaa. xD

TOMBOYISH-

SUPER GIRLISH-

i LOVEE how it mixes xD

okayy.
that was thursday.
just had to do it. ahaa.
couldnt stand the long hair behind.

CHOMP CHOMP chomping on an APPLE.
what a sucky day i had.
aww.

tire me out totally.
not feeling well + dragonboat + work

all add up.
awww.
i'm feeling HORRID.
totally.

tmr will be a better day x(

2007-09-14T05:37:00.001+08:00

i've just went for a CRAZZYY haircut.
dont ask why.
ahaha.
maybe i was just bored.
but anyway.
just stay calm.
hahaha.

anyway.
myself have to get use to it.
haha.
i cant stand the nerd look.
but aaah.
its just a try.
at least right.
its called adventurous.

tmr's friday.
yes.
sat is DRAGONBOAT!! =D biggrins-
then again, i've gotta work x(
taking over for a friend.
but its only till midnight.
so i stil can save moolah and catch the last bus home.

i need to start going to the gym again.
my muscles are disappearing.

and i think i'd better let grapevine know soon.
that i've gotta quit end of the month.

tonight was damnfun.
ahahaa.
madness to the max.
Chiewster. HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY.
hehh.

let's head to the gym soon xD

and yay!
haha. tmr's eating day.
then back to diet again.
right. ahahaa.

AND HELP HELP HELP,
i cant get the electric stove working.
damnit.
spent stupid 20mins trying to get it working.
to no avail.
fine.
see when i wana cook, this has to happen.
and when i refuse to cook, i'm forced eat out.
wth.
aiyaaa.
anyway.
sushi tmr!!
cravingcraving again.

lights out.

2007-09-13T02:58:00.001+08:00

I ATE FROG MEAT -

GROSS. that's the first and the last time.
met grapevine friends for supper.
went to the corner shop to eat.

damndumb. they said they've got no hot water.
then i couldnt have my milo.
bloodyhell.
that old man was just plain lazy to make it from scratch.
he only wanted to serve us canned drinks.
WTH.

anyway.
gosh. frog meat is wayy tooo soft and SLIMY for my liking.
bleahhh.
tasted awful to me.
but i was in between 2pple who loved it and couldnt
stop spitting the bones out on the table
building 2 mountains.
eeeyewwww.

i LIKE MY NEW JOB =D
stress free.
no pressure.
my pace.
hahaa.

but only one thing.
formal wear is a must everyday.
damn.
i'll probably alternate the pathetic 2pants i have.
and i'm so gonna wear slippers tmr.
its under the table so no one's gonna see anyway.

YES. its bloody boring.
made phonecalls till i nearly fell asleep.
but at least it wasnt pressurizing like the
telemarketing job where there's a quota to meet.
nope nope.
sum of them thank me for offering them the job too.
ahaha.

maybe i just havent ran into anyone nasty.
hopefully i'll never.

i take ONE HOUR to get there.
but totally free.
thanks to bus pass.
so. ohwells.
yea. there's finally a job that i like.

but then again,
i wonder how long before i'm gonna start complaining of boredom.
there's always text msging.
which i wasnt allowed to do in the previous job too.

the boss is pretty relaxed and calm too.
and most of the time he's not around.
so its slacking time.
heheh.

so what else.
ohyea.
STUPID TREMORS.
i thought the building was gonna fall.
sounds over exaggerated.
but seriously, i've never felt it this bad before.
and it lasted for bloody long time.
one min is long enough.
this lasted like what.2 mins!?!
gosh. all i did was to stay at the swaying picture frame
hung on the wall in front of me.
and i didnt even move.
felt the WHOLE entire building shaking.
gosh. and i was alone again.
its just scary to be alone when such things happen.
ha.

okay better go shower and rest.
otherwise i can forget about getting up tmr.

its THURSDAY!!! woohoooo xD
getting my pay of 3days on friday.
ahahaa. better than nothing.

2007-09-13T02:54:00.000+08:00

sri lankan netballer.
she's even taller than yaoming.
freaking scary.
and she plays babyball and 1dollar 3 try game
under the net.
that's all.

i drew such a realistic picture of
a person that we didnt use to like.
TOTALLY has that look on her face.
ahaa.

2007-09-12T03:22:00.000+08:00

damn!
crappyshit.
i'm either getting too used to sleeping at 4plus.
or i'm having insomnia.

MY EAR IS SWOLLEN.
yea how great.
pierced it like a week ago.
and now it HURTS badly.
makes no sense.
hopefully its not an infection.
i slept on it last night.
been brushing or hitting it by accident too.
sheesh.
it REALLY HURTS.
damnit.
i'm gonna take ice now.
was hurting while i was working halfway.
ARGHHHH.

okay. i'm one handed now.
i hope the bone didnt break or smthng.
paranoid after having a look at persis's ear cartilage.

aaaah.
serves me right.

and i havent exercised in 98787698 days!!
raaahhs.
so much for wanting to get my muscles.
i dont care.
i stil have to try them.

ohgosh. the ear hurts pretty much.
its giving me a headache when i put ice on it x(

and i'm having wind trapped in my stomach again.
sigh. charcoal pills, where are you when i need you.

sickening.
last night i spend bloody ONEHOUR trying to sleep.
gave up.
took a drowsy pill ( for itchyness on my foot )and went to sleep on the couch.
btw, stupid infection came back to haunt me.
this time was worst.
the top of my both feet had it.
ARGH.
then it infected the very same toe.
it was an UNBEARABLE itch man.

woke up in the morning bad shape.
could hardly pull myself up.
damn.
stupid drug.

anyway, yea. quit my telemarketing job at boatquay.
though it paid well. like an hour.
BUT my saturdays would go wasted into trying to make
freaking appointments with pple.
so, yea. i QUIT. xD

went for yet another interview today.
at aia changi.
as a personal asst.
right.
hopefully i'll just have to do data entry and make coffee.
but no.
i've gotta surf the net to recruit pple for Godknowswhat reasons.
i got the job.
formal attire to work.
uhm.what else.

yea. its lesser than the previous pay.
haha. by fiftycents.
but i work only from 1-5pm.
good and bad laa.
good in a way i dont have to worry about what time to get up.
that i can sit in the office.
trying to find the fastest way that i can get to eunos from home.

anyway,
probably having indigestion from the sushi buffet yesterday too.
gosh. all attacking at onceee!!!

madness.
i've been in a sketchy mode the past few days.
muahaa.

does putting ice really helps to bring the swell down?

its past 4!!
and i'm not the least sleepy.
how fantastic.
tmr i'm gonna die.

its so annoying to wana sleep but cant.

anyway, ahaa. got money today.
grapevine was sssooooo quiet today.
my fav day.
ahahaa.

i havent tried botakjones!! i wana try.
heard good comments about it.

aaaaah.
my stomach's killing me.
that's it,
i'm gonna go to bed now.
with ice on my ear.

2007-09-12T03:20:00.000+08:00

hehe.
this was last week.
a late update.
but anyways.
here it is.

2007-09-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

hehe.
went for Banquet tonight.
it was at olio dome suntec.
haha.
anyway.
some pple really made the effort to dress.
some not so..

uhm. and ALAN put me down for nomination of best hair.
RIGHT. FYI, i only added 2pathetic pins in my hair.
didnt have time to wax it before i left the house.

wanted to wear my grey fedora since its a dinner.
aiyaah.
i forgot all about it.
wonder when's the next time i'm gonna use it.
but anyway.

uhmm.
the food was alright.
haha.
some daring guy wore pink and white.
but he pulled it off.
so he looked good.
very sat night fever kinda look.
and another one wore a fedora.

hmm.
that's about it.
i was uh i think the few or only on wearing FORMAL
pants.
the other girls were in dress or jeans.
so wanted to wear my black jeans.
alamaks.
it would have looked nicer.
but anyhow.
it was quite alright.
ate till i felt i need a jog.

i should invest in a treadmill.

found yet another job.
as a phone person.
working hour 12-5.
but its at boatquay.
hmm. call ppl make appointments kind.
hehe.

happy happy.
now i can kill time in the hols and be selfsupporting.
though i'll be having very much more of a night life.
rather than hang out in the day.
ohwells.

meet everyone at night.
its okay.
there's always dinner and movies.

counted that they'll probably deduct cpf.
but i'll stil get more than enough.
so i'll save. selfsupport.and have just alittle left for a treat =D

this is the life.

woohoo.
love it.

then it'll be over soon.
and back to school.
enough break to work.
back to schooling and learning new things.

ahahaa.
its as though i'm in such optimistic hope of everything.
well as of now.
i'm FREEE.
with FREEDOM written on every part of me.
for a month.
i have to enjoy it to the fullest.

then i'll have ta tell inform report to the Mothership already.
that'll be in oct.

ohyea!
now i rememeber what i'm saving for.
my practical lessons.
hope i pass my advance.
long way.
start of oct.

yes.
now i'm gonna bathe and sleep.
its sucha relief knowing that study is no longer on the
"things to do" list.
hehehe.
i'm filling it up.

OHKAY!
off i go.
tmr will be an early day.
gotta be up at uhmm.
10??
haha.
just remembered that i forgot to eat lunch today.
right.
wth. too busy walking and talking.
hahaha.

OKAYOKAY.
i'm HAPPY and full.
and i need to run.
but for now.
conserving energy to run 35tables/2 tmr.
moolah sake.
i'll do it!!
heheheeheh.

i need to sleep more.
its good for the face huh.
okay.
it better prove right.
yes.
i'm going.

gone

2007-08-30T02:08:00.000+08:00

HAHA. i WON.

some phone.

didnt even know what i was winning.

okay.

just went to look it up.

here it is

uhm.

called.

KRZR K3.

motorola.

haha.

i dont use motorola.

i stil like my sony ericsson

this can be mum's bday present.

unless she doesnt like it

then of course i'll use it.

hehe.

YAY.

still.

THANK THANK THANK GOD =)

my mum needs a phone anyway when she gets back.

hahah. just nice.